HANZKY

1. I love you for telling me that you love the way i look when i just get up in the morning

2. I love the fact that you don't hold grudges against me, you forgive and forget...and never bring up any mistakes i've made in the past

3. I love the way you carry yourself in front of anybody you meet, you seems to gain respect from others easily

4. I love the way you laugh when i childishly act silly in front of you, such as when i do the jungkir balik thing

5. I love the fact that you realize that I SUCK AT SINGING but you still ask me to sing anyway..

6. I love the fact that you pay attention to little things down to the very detail...like where i bought my clothes from even though i got it long ago and i've forgot about it my self, or when you know the price of 4 rolls charming tissues in schnucks and how expensive it is compare to walmart...

7. I love you for being my private buku pintar..*hehe*, i practically can ask you about anything and everything and you always have the answer for those..

8. I love the fact that you have a nurturing mental, the fact that you love kids, the fact that you are willing to grow plants and running around stores to find plants you like

9. I love you even more for the fact that the things i don't like about you can't even be accumulated to TEN....

10. I LOVE YOU for everything nduti, for being you, for loving me the way i am...thank you GOD for sending me this beautiful creature of human being..=)

You know..i went to Gordmans yesterday with nduti and i got my new organizer for 2002 *yey*, it's leather..well maybe vinyl but anyway, it's brown colored..i like it..it looks expensive, at first i wanted the red one so it matches my liz claiborne key hooks and i also plan to buy a red nine west watch..but oh well..the brown one looks better. So i'm happy i got what one...but to be honest here...i don't really know what to do with that, i haven't even unload it from the shopping bag. Oh well

Last week, i signed up for an online photo albums at fotki.com , i haven't fully figured it out how that site works but i uploaded some of my photos anyway, there were 4 of them. When i uploaded the photo..i remember i clicked the choice that said accessible for my friends only. That means i get to choose who can view my pictures and who can't..right??. So anyway, i haven't touched that thing again since last week and a few minutes ago..i wanted to upload some more pictures of mine when i noticed there is an entry in the guest book sections. Apparently, this dude name mahmud in egypt signed my guestbook, i don't even know him and have no idea how he get the access to my photo album, i found out later that his name is in my buddy list..don't ask me why his name is on the list..i haven't even put any of my friends on the list. Okay so


..to get my photo viewed by others that i don't know is one thing..i supposed i am okay with that since i also have a website with loads of pictures of me and i make it available for anyone to see...BUT..for a stranger to see my pictures and telling me how beautiful i look *honestly, it didn't flattered me at all* and steal my pictures and make it as his wallpaper is another thing...! This is really scares me and i don't know what to do..i want him to drag my pictures onto the recyble bin and just empty the bin...but how is that possible???.. Anyway, so what i did was i delete all of the pictures in my fotki album...oh man...this is so spooky...=(

1. I love you for telling me that you love the way i look when i just get up in the morning
2. I love the fact that you don't hold grudges against me, you forgive and forget...and never bring up any mistakes i've made in the past
3. I love the way you carry yourself in front of anybody you meet, you seems to gain respect from others easily
4. I love the way you laugh when i childishly act silly in front of you, such as when i do the jungkir balik thing
5. I love the fact that you realize that I SUCK AT SINGING but you still ask me to sing anyway..
6. I love the fact that you pay attention to little things down to the very detail...like where i bought my clothes from even though i got it long ago and i've forgot about it my self, or when you know the price of 4 rolls charming tissues in schnucks and how expensive it is compare to walmart...
7. I love you for being my private buku pintar..*hehe*, i practically can ask you about anything and everything and you always have the answer for those..
8. I love the fact that you have a nurturing mental, the fact that you love kids, the fact that you are willing to grow plants and running around stores to find plants you like
9. I love you even more for the fact that the things i don't like about you can't even be accumulated to TEN....
10. I LOVE YOU for everything nduti, for being you, for loving me the way i am...thank you GOD for sending me this beautiful creature of human being..=)

Browsing around the net all day long, this what has been doing since i took my last final...not very productive. But hey, i don't have any choice. I enjoy this though because soon spring semester will start and i will barely have time to go online..so i'm making the most of it right now...hehe. Anyway, i'm still downloading songs..i can't get enough of those. My favorite song at the moment is kyle minogue.."can't get you out of my head"..i like the tunes and the rythme..it's so energetic and makes you happy and now i can't get this song out of my head..la la la..la la la la la la la...=)


You know, i checked my grades over the internet yesterday. When the semester began, i thought i could get this semesters done with A's all over my transcript but i kinda figured out that was not gonna happen when the final's week approaching..kinda lost track i guess. So, i only found 3 A's on my transcript..suprise surprise..i got A for my marketing research class...did he get my grades mixed up or something?. or was the project really a masterpiece?. I guess it's the project huh?..so all of the hard work, the time that wasted to get this boring project completed is finally paid off. I got B for two of the classesand a C for finance class. I know this finance class is no joke and when i came to the class on day one i was like.."i'll be happy with a c for this class"..but then i made my effort, i got a b on my second exam and i got A's and B's for my quizzes, eventhough i haven't found out what my final grades is...i'm sure it won't be that bad, at least a B..so how come i got C for the overall grades???..Oh i need to talk to the teacher..but ooh..you know him, he's not friendly and seems to not have the willingness to help the students...and he made it clear on the last class that he can't give grades over the phone or email..so that means i need to get my butt all the way back to carbondale just to find out what my grades are/


we're going to Gordmans later this afternoon, after dendre got back from work..i'm so excited because i'm gonna buy my new organizer. I know i know..i have this thing about organizer..i just can't get enough of those..i remember ever since i was in grade school..i always bought organizer over and over and over again, i must have one big box of those accumulated. And you know..it's not like i'm this creative girl who seems like running out of places to allocate her so called creativeness..believe me i am not. So i just bought one for the sake of it and since new year is coming..i have a good reason to buy yet another new organizer..and the rosetti organizer sitting nicely on the rack at gordmans is just so iressistible..


So..i finished my first cd yesterday..*sounding like an artist..*...it has alternative rock songs on it...from blurry to creed ..the calling to staind, matchbox 20, linkin park, five for fighting. My favorite song in this one is superman.."it's not easy...to be..me...". I like puddly of Mud by blurry too...i basically like every single song in this cd. Now i'm about to make my second cd, i'm gonna put every love songs by krisdayanti and Anang *haha, it's so cheesy don't you think?*...

So i checked my inbox every two minutes or so right, cause i'm expecting email from nduti..and then when i checked it again the next 2 minutes..i got an email from astrid so i figured she must be online with her yahoo messenger. I used dendre's nick at that time and her nick is not on there so i didn't know wheter she was online or not, so i logged in with my nick instead and there she was, hehehe..!. It feels good to talk to her again, since it's been quite a while..but we didn't really talk a lot though..i was just kinda confused what topic to bring and it seems like the conversation was not flowing so smooth.


Anyway, i was like asking her about andi..whether he's going home or not this holiday and right after she answered my question...asu went online on the ICQ...*bless him to have a long life..*, so they talked and he decided to download yahoo messenger too. When he finished downloading the messenger, he added my nick and everything and so we chatted, hehehe...it was funny..you know he's always been goofy and all. And then i showed him my webcam, hehe..he was laughing he said i look like an arab, well what do you expect? . Anyway, he said that he has a webcam too but he doesn't know how to use it, hehe..so i told him how to use it and then next thing i knew his face was in my monitor..hehehehe, it was funny tho...!.


He's roommated with Edo and i got to talk to him too and saw him on the webcam, he looks so skinny. They both look the same like they were in high school...oh my god..that was like..when..4 or 5 years ago??


I'm still laughing over the things asu said to astrid..when he hasn't downloaded the yahoo messenger, he said things to me via astrid, so astrid was like.."hani..kata asu salam buat nelly ..IA IA O'Ooo..". At first i was like..what??..but then i figured out that was the lyrics in one of nelly's songs...hahahha..

I took a personal profile test at one of the astrology related site, this one seems to be accurate although some are definetely wrong...they said that i love the beauty of the natural world and prefer a serene country setting rather than an urban life style..ehm excuse me, as much as i love natural world..i am however prefer the city life setting over mountains..

Overall, they did a good job for revealing my self and i can learn more about my self. The profile said that i am a steadfast and patient soul...capable of tremendous devotion, dedication, endurance and constancy....*woo hooo*..i know i get all those from my lovely mom...thank you mom for having the ability to follow through and stick with things and make the most of it. Other things they said is the fact that i want to see concrete, tangible results for my efforts. And...this is what reveals most about me ...it said that most of my dreams have to do with well-being, security and material achievements.I have a strong desire for security, stability and peace. very true..

At heart, my needs are simple and I am easy to please *true true*, not very demanding but i do crave lots of physical closeness and affection. And because of my faithfulness, emotional steadiness, and gentle strength..others often depend upon me for support. I have an innate sense of harmonizing things, allowing things to grow and unfold in their own time and the patience to nurture something into being..be it a child *i know i'll make an excellent mom* or a garden...*this one i'm not sure* .

It also said that i want to experience and enjoy life to the full and eventhough i will work long and persistently, i still have a strong sensual and comfort-loving side and want to enjoy what i have worked for. I can be enormously lazy at times..*very true* and have a tendency to overindulge in good foor and other earthly pleasures.

My major faults, according to this site is my bull-headed obstinacy and also my unwillingness to deviate from my safe, predictable routine. That's true you know...and this is what has been holding me back from a lot of things. My third major faults is i have the ability to open my mind to the new. Hmm, i'm not agree with this one since i always think i am open to new things..although not the extreme ones like bunjee jumping or a ride in roller coaster *you know i'm petrified of heights, right?*. my life has been changing a lot and i have moved over a few countries..singapore, australia and the states..i've gone to different kinds of school, culture, people and exposed to a lot of things. So i am completely disagree with the last one.

It also said something about my mentality...about my mind that operates in a very deliberate and methodical manner. I dislike being rushed or forced to give an opinion before i have thoroughly ruminated and digested the idea. I am also difficult to influence one my mind is made up. They also said that i am a bit slow to grasp new concepts or learn new skills..oh Hell No...i realize i'm not the top student but i can say that i am a quick learner..there's no doubt about it. Well, that's actually depend though..are we talking about math or things i like here?. If it's math they are talking about than i have no objection..but if it's something i like and wants to learn..i am actually quite bright..=)

It's nice outside..cold but yet the sun shine so bright..=). I just got back from walgreens, bought a few little things such as sally hansen gel cuticle remover...hehe, that's for my nduti..he;s always biting his cuticle and i hate it when he does that, so hopefully he can get rid of his habit with this gel thingy..if it doesn't break that means he doesn't have anything to bite..right?. i also bought a 12 pack TDK blank cassette..you know..i have practically nothing to do here except downloading all of the songs at audiogalaxy...*i'm in love with audiogalaxy..*, so after i transfer the song to the cd writer, i'm gonna record it to the cassette i just bought...i know it's a bit old fashioned..still listening to the cassette in almost year 2002, hehe..what can i say...thecar doesn't have cd player...


What else i bought at walgreens??..ooh i bought cadburry roast almond..hmm, yummy..and i also bought in style magazine. ohh i'm so full right now..i ordered mc donalds from the drive thru window..as usual..i ordered 4 pieces nugget happy meal..i've been collecting the beannie babys that comes with it lately, i have 4 so far..i think there are 4 more to go...yey..hehe.

i've never thought that the combination of these three things is actually pretty good..=). That was my dinner for tonight.

As for my weekend, i had a wonderful weekend..=), dendre came on friday night, i went to mbak titi's house when he was on the way here, i picked up mbak susi first and went there together. We also had another indonesian gathering last night at mbak susi's place, it was actually farewell dinner for mbak maya but since her house was nothing but empty *she's leaving today* so they decided to hold the event in mbak susi's instead. So..i've been having some good meals lately, don't forget to add some kalahas on my latest menu..hehe.

We watched basketball yesterday...siu versus indiana university, the hoosiers..or should i call the boooooosiers..haha... it was so awesome..it was like the best game i have ever watched, i mean like the place, the decoration, the fireworks, the crowds..the team, everything was perfect..and that's just what we needed. People justify the arena with big smiles..everybody's happy..

We also went to the mall to exchange my black pants, i bought it since 2 months ago but turned out that i don't really like it so i never actually wear it, but i've lost the receipt, so they gave me a store credit, i got a turtle neck tank top and a tiny t for the exchanges.

since when the tuna's subs at wise guy have cheese on it?. ..this tastes weird.


Anyway, i spent a couple hours earlier tonight in the computer lab, doing the project thingy with my group..the project is endless, i mean we keep getting more and more stuff to do and everything should be bound by tuesday next week. Like that's possible?


Well, whatever..i think i have spent more than enough hours for that project, i need to concentrate on my other class..especially since i have 5 exams next week...wow..could this be anymore fun?


i didn't have a lot to do today, but man do i feel exhausted?.

Nighty night..=)

whenever it's freezin outside, my ears are the one that's affected the most..i really need some ear plug or something..!. Pheww, i'm done for today's assignment..i don't care anymore if they are all far from perfect...i did my best..and dendre has done his best too. The website is pretty cool tho, i think that's the perfect one among the other stuff..hope Dr. Bruner will like it..it'll be awesome if we could put some sound on the website also actually..but there is no way we could do it with such a short period of time.


My exam today was okay, i didn't study that much but i think i did okay..but i was pissed off that i changed one of my answer because i look at the answer sheet that belongs to the girl who sits next tome..and when i get out of the class and i checked the answer with my notes..damn, my first answer was the correct one. isn't that

stupid..? How come you trust other more than you trust yourself?


I'm talking to azelin in yahoo messenger right now...it is so sweet to talk to an old friend who was once really close to you, well..lin is not just a bestfriend, she's more like a sister to me..and i still feel close to her..even though we don't really talk a lot..(now is the first time i talked to her since a few months ago)..we're still close at heart. The way i look at it..she's like a resemble of an angel..i mean, that girl does not have a mean bone in her body..she's supernice!.


i guess i talk to you later, i need to clean up my room since it's messy all around...

whenever it's freezin outside, my ears are the one that's affected the most..i really need some ear plug or something..!. Pheww, i'm done for today's assignment..i don't care anymore if they are all far from perfect...i did my best..and dendre has done his best too. The website is pretty cool tho, i think that's the perfect one among the other stuff..hope Dr. Bruner will like it..it'll be awesome if we could put some sound on the website also actually..but there is no way we could do it with such a short period of time.

My exam today was okay, i didn't study that much but i think i did okay..but i was pissed off that i changed one of my answer because i look at the answer sheet that belongs to the girl who sits next tome..and when i get out of the class and i checked the answer with my notes..damn, my first answer was the correct one. isn't that
stupid..? How come you trust other more than you trust yourself?

I'm talking to azelin in yahoo messenger right now...it is so sweet to talk to an old friend who was once really close to you, well..lin is not just a bestfriend, she's more like a sister to me..and i still feel close to her..even though we don't really talk a lot..(now is the first time i talked to her since a few months ago)..we're still close at heart. The way i look at it..she's like a resemble of an angel..i mean, that girl does not have a mean bone in her body..she's supernice!.

i guess i talk to you later, i need to clean up my room since it's messy all around...

i'm doing my objective three for my research class..there is only one word for this project..boring. I should have taken only this one class for the whole semester, i mean seriously..this class is so so so much work that i feel like i could do better in my other class if my time is not so consumed by this class.


I just got back from Great Shape..the fitness center to get cathy signature for the client approval form, and i also went to the arena to buy the tickets for saturday game. Mbak Titi just called and she invited me to have dinner (it's actually buka puasa) in her house this friday..cool, i sure could use some more indonesian food..hehe. I'm not fasting today by the way..*shame on me*...


well, that's all..i need to finish my project..i'll get back to you in a little while..=)

Okay, i'm sitting here in my computer desk, struggling to do my research project, but of course..unsuccessfully.! i miss my nduti and now i have this idea on my mind about marrying him, hehehe....!. you think i'm just kidding, don't you? you won't believe that i actually have done some head way on planning the big thing..=), i talked to my mom the other day, and i said to her about my plan to get married with nduti next year..=), and she agrees with that, even though i know that doesn't mean she will go running around finding me a wedding gown next week..*grin*..hehe, she just said okay but of course there are things that needs to be put into consideration before making such a huge commitment. She suggested me to pray like this.."Ya Tuhan, tolong dekatkan lah kami kalau dia memang jodoh saya, dan tolong jauh kan lah kalau dia ternyata bukan jodoh saya.."..


well..let me tell you something mom....i did pray like that for like hundreds times when i was in Perth...and now i'm here with him, closer than ever...=), so i hope that's a sign from God. And..since that line of pray does not work for me anymore...i found a new one..


"Ya Tuhan, kalau dia memang jodohku, dekatkanlah...

Tapi kalau bukan jodohku, jodohkanlah....

Kalau dia memang bukan jodohku, jangan sampe dia dapet jodoh yang lain selain aku...

Kalau dia jodoh orang lain, putuskanlah!, jodohkanlah dengan ku....

Amin...".

hahaha....

so happy right now..feel so relieved and no pressure at all. The reason is because i'm done for the week, i just took my research test..i think i handled the multiple choice questions okay, i'm not sure about the essay part tho..not that bad i hope..*i need those 40 bonus points*, beside that..i'm happy because i got 93 for my finance quiz...yey...=), i'm also happy because i talked to debbie last night about ASAF and i told her that it's better for me to quit...she was okay with that..i guess, well she was just smiling and telling me not to worry..she said she's not mad at me or anything..so that means she's cool right ? *i hope she's telling the truth*?. Oh yes so i don't have to go to all of the meetings and don't have to bother about the activities and all that..if they have an event and if i can come i can come and if i can't..no pressure...oh that's so wonderful. Especially since they have a general meeting right now and i'm so not in the mood to participate..hehe.


Another reason why i feel so happy is because tomorrow is friday..and i'm going to see my nduti..=), i'm not sure if i only spend the weekend over there or i make it straight till thanksgiving..we'll see!.


I just cleaned up my room a little bit..can't believe how messy it was. Now i'm updating klikmarketing here and there..i love my klikmarketing and i don't want to just leave it like that..i want to maintain it and update it as often as i can. There are still people visiting the site anyway.


What else yaa..oh i called my mom last night..around 2 in the morning..she wasn't home..i just wanted to ask about the package i sent from here the other day, i tracked it on the website..it's said it has arrived in Jakarta, i hope the post office folks does not mess around with my package cos i read in kafegaul forum that a lot of people complaining about jakarta's post office, most of them get their package stolen and they actually change it to some illegal stuff so that they can charge them or fine them. that's pathetic..! I hope my package gets there safely..untouch!


Anyway, i met martha on the way back from school this afternoon and she told me she cooked rendang today and asked me to have dinner with her...hehe...my pleasure martha..=)

I'm at school now..in rehn hall computer hall..my class won't start for another 45 minutes..i don't know what to do..so i decided to just messing around with this. lately i'm running out of idea what websites to visit..i just got bored to see the same thing over and over again.

Anyway, i just had quarter pounder for lunch..it sure is make my stomach full. You know how i've been thinking about resigning from ASAF right..? Well i finally decided to tell debbie this afternoon in the student center..i was waiting in there..a bit nervous...but she didn't show up..ohh..it makes it even harder for me to wait any longer...!. I don't know how is she gonna react after i told her this..i hope she's cool with it..i mean..it's not gonna make any difference without me or with me right..??..

Aan called me last night..i can't believe she's leaving in a matter of days..and leaving for good!. well life hasn't been treating her well since she's been here...so she decided to go home. I'm actually a bit sad if i'm thinking about the fact that she's going home for good..e.i hope things will be back on track for her..i wish you the best of luck ya an..and i'm gonna miss you a lot.

Hmm..you know what..mina is getting married this january..waw..i can't believe that...i can't believe that she finally get what she wanted. You know when we were in high school..she always talked about how she wished to meet her guy once she got to college..and got married and just stay with him for the rest of her life..wow...! And that's happen like exactly how she wants it to be..! She met a guy not long after she started her college life..and right now they are busy arranging their wedding..!. Oh my god..i'm so happy for you mina..wish i could be there on your wedding day.....=).

What else yaa..i don't know what else to talk.... U2 is coming to st.louis and dendre is dying to see the concert but the thing is..the ticket is sold out like..an hour after they first open the ticket window..wow...most people even lining up the night before they sell the ticket. So..i guess we won't go to see the concert then......poor nduti...i hope like we can find a way somehow at the last minute..=)..amin ya nduti.

 Sometimes i don't understand why people tell lies..to make them looks better? to make people appreciate more? to make people think they're high class and all that..? i just don't get that...just be yourself and if you are a good person...people will like you no matter what kind of cars you are driving..what kind of social cliche you're from and all that...you don't have to make stories up..*sigh*

wow, it's been a while since i've been here..more than a month i guess, i've been meaning to stop by here and dish some of my thoughts..but..i don't know..it's not like i don't have enough time..i always online anyway, it's just..i can't just log in and start typing...i think i need to be in the specific mood or something. It's weird..i think i kind of scary to open up about my self..not that i'm afraid somebody will find out because no one's know this address, but..it's just kinda scary to me to figure out about my self, to dig out my feelings and all that..it gives me this eerie feeling whenever i start writing in here....what's wrong with me??. I hope this just because i don't write here regularly...i guess i'll have to make it a habit to come here...

Mom called and guess what...we talked about me..about me and nduti, about my plan and all that...i forgot how it started, the conversation just flow like that. Yupe, i told her that i think i've found somebody i wanna be married to and that i wanna do it soon..maybe in a year or two ..the faster the better. She said that if that's what i want..she's fine with that..but she said she needs more time to get to know nduti and his family better..she knows that they are nice and all that..but that's not enough you know, we're talking about a long life relationship here and if i get married with him that means he's gonna be my mom's son and vice versa. She also said that what she really wants is for me to have a man who is a good muslim, knows a to z about islam and implement the religion on day to day basis, she said that if he is obedient to the religion then it will guarantee him to be a good man for his wife and for the family. Nduti..i guess you know what to do now..!!..hehe..

huh..i have finance quiz tomorrow and i haven't even started..i know i'm a proscastinator..big time proscastinator. i'm so happy with my finance class..i got 83 for the second exam...yey..=)...i know i know..that's after a whole lot bonus points..but still...!.I had 2 exams today and i didn't do good..i got 80 for both of them...mktg 329 and mgmt 318. I think i'm fine with mktg 329..i think i can get an A out of this class..but for mgmt 318..hmm..i thought i could get an A easily..but then the test is actually getting harder and harder and i barely make it to class..! I need a 92 for the last test so i could get an A overal..i hope i can make it..i just need to be more prepared!.

Hmm..what else..i had a lot in mind last week..from my annoying toothache to ASAF and else...!. .i can go on and on about all this...i gotta brush my teeth..and decide what i'm gonna do after that...is it better to sleep early and wake up early tomorrow to study for my quiz..or..study till late and wake up close to 9..?..hmm..i don't know..i think i'll go with option number 1...hehe..seeyaa!

You and I are connected in a way that goes beyond romance,..

beyond friendship, beyond what we've ever had before.

It has defied time, distance, and changes in ourselves and in our lives.

And it has defied every explanation except one:

purely and simply, we're soulmates.

I can't explain it, i just feel it.

It's there in the way my spirit subtly lifts whenever we talk,

how the sound of your voice brings me home in a way I can't explain.

it's in the delight I feel when we laugh at exactly the same things.

When I'm with you, it's like a tiny part of the universe shifts into the place it's supposed to be,

and all is right with the world

These things, and so many more, have made me understand

that this is a once-in-a-lifetime, forever connection

that could only exist between you and me.

And deep in my soul,

I know that our relationship is a rare gift, one that will bring us an extraordinary happiness all through our lives.


Hope we can make it to the end ya ndut.

with love,

You and I are connected in a way that goes beyond romance,..
beyond friendship, beyond what we've ever had before.
It has defied time, distance, and changes in ourselves and in our lives.
And it has defied every explanation except one:
purely and simply, we're soulmates.
I can't explain it, i just feel it.
It's there in the way my spirit subtly lifts whenever we talk,
how the sound of your voice brings me home in a way I can't explain.
it's in the delight I feel when we laugh at exactly the same things.
When I'm with you, it's like a tiny part of the universe shifts into the place it's supposed to be,
and all is right with the world
These things, and so many more, have made me understand
that this is a once-in-a-lifetime, forever connection
that could only exist between you and me.
And deep in my soul,
I know that our relationship is a rare gift, one that will bring us an extraordinary happiness all through our lives.

Hope we can make it to the end ya ndut.
with love,

Agh, i'm so hungry and i'm starving for some house special chicken for kahala. I called them up just now but they said they only do delivery for orders more than $10, damn...a house special chicken and fish ball soup only cost me around $6..so..what should i get with the four dollars justify?..no luck on kahala, so i just called sam's cafe and orders shawarma chicken, sam's cafe will still deliver it to you even if you only orders a $2 worth of subs.


I'm chatting with dendre now..he's making some martabak mie..it sure tastes good. You know dendre and i are using web cam now so we can see each other while chatting..hehe, that's cute don't you think? so we can see each other everyday!


Today, when i had lunch at the student center, i browsed around the university bookstore's card section..i was looking for a card for hana's birthday and then i came accross with this really awesome card..all of the words in there are just exactly the duplicate of my feelings and what i think of our relationship. ..even tho i don't really like the layout and the color (it's just too cheesy) but i thought i could use another card and copy some of the words and re-words that a little bit. I don't know when i'll give him the card tho..maybe some times soon..!. Okay, i'll write down what the card says in the next entry.

i don't feel well tonight, i've been sick since last wednesday, man..last wednesday was terrible. I didn't eat the whole day till late in the afternoon...and then i ate noodle once i got home..*smart idea, huh*..that made my stomach really sick and i didn't feel well at all when the night came..but then carson called to have a group meeting and do the mktg 438 homework..i knew i wouldn't be able to figure all of the answers by my self so i said okay i'll be there. And..things just got worse in the library...i felt like throwing up the whole time but i handle that okay i guess. But you know..by the time i stepped on my room..i began throwing up. My body was shaking, my head was so dizzy that i thought i was about to pass out. So i just lied down on my bed, pour some minyak kayu putih..and just took some rest. But after an hour of lying down..(i couldn't fell asleep), i felt like throwing up again so i ran quickly to the bathroom but i couldn't make it there, i mean..i could make it to the bathroom but i couldn't hold it till i get to the bathroom..so my carpet was just covered with all those dirty stuff that came out of my mouth (yikes).

So, since then..i still haven't felt better..i catch a cold right now..i ve been sneezing like every second and my throats is just itchy...oh my god, this is not fun at all. I took some medicine that i bought at walgreens but it seems does not work yet.

Despite all that, i had a really nice and fun weekend. Dendre came here friday night..and he gave me a card...it was so sweet of him..thank you ya nduti....the cards says like this...

"HONEY, can't wait to hug you...for a good long time, can't wait to squeeze you..because you're mine...can't wait to kiss you ...........and if you don't mind..can't wait to get my hands on your behind.."..

huehehehe.. and he draws like a cute smiley face..e. Makasih ya nduti...:)

Ben called me earlier..and he said that he really loves it to see us...he said that we both are really good for each other and we just seems like a very good couple..you know..always happy to be together and cherish every moment together...! ..:)

On friday night..dendre and i didn't go anywhere except to eat at kahala..and his fried rice didn't turn out that good like it always been. Oh..i guess we went to walgreens too to buy some medicine for me..dendre wanted to play pool with ben at 11 actually but he was just too tired.

Saturday, we went to jonesboro to pick up vero..and then we went to marion mall, i really wanted to buy things so badly but it just seems that i couldn't find the one i like, and when i did find the one i like...they didn't have the size for me. But i'm still eyeing at the boots ..maybe i'll get that later..sometimes next month or end of this month. University mall was our next stop after that, and i did buy some things from famous barr, just 2 football jackets..for 9.99....and i bought a black pants also, it's actually a bit longer for me..i have to figure out what to do with it. We went back to my dorm to take a shower and change..and then we went to student center to meet with ben, martha and segu. We all played pool and i played for the first time..martha was showing me how to play with so much patience..hehe...i know i won't be able to poke some balls.

After bored with playing pool, we went to play bowling at coo coos, at first we want to play at the place behind the mall but they were closed, so we had to drive all the way to carterville...it was a fun game, hehe...! We stopped by at walmart on the way back, and i bought alittle present for marilu..it's her birthday today..hope she likes it.

I didn't show up for the surprise party debbie made for her..i know debbie was telling me about it but she didn't remind again me so i was kinda forget about it, and when the clock hits 12...i was far away in marion so i couldn't make it.

I know..i think people will start you know..talking about me..not like gossiping or anything, but they are questioning why i never spare some times to hang out with them??..you know..i always promise to debbie that i will go here and there with her..such as the karaoke presented by taiwanese student association, the soccer game, all those meetings and many others. Marilu and kareen also always ask me to go out with them but i just couldn't make it. I don't know..it's not that i don't want to hang out with them..but i just have a lot of things to do this semester..i have assignment due almost every day, all the tests, project and everything are just killing me. So, having fun at sticks in one of school days is the least thing i wanna do. Besides..clubbing is not really my scene ..!..I don't know..i hope they can understand this..and .to be friends does not mean that you have to hang out, go out and spend times with each other all the time right?

So, after we dropped martha off at ambasador hall, we went for supper at chicago hotdog..i was really hungry. Vero slept over at ben's...hehe...can't imagine that.

Today...we went over to ben's house, vero was still there and we had lunch at kahala. After that, ben took her home and dendre and i went to office max..i needed to buy hp calculator for my finance class, but they didn't have it there. Thank god we finally found it at 710 so, i can catch up with all the materials..(and that..if i can manage to study). I don't mind studying actually you know..if it's for my marketing class. But this is finance..??

I had a group meeting at 8 tonight.....it didn't take that long but i'm getting tired of group meeting.

I still can't believe what has happened to the united states on tuesday, September 11, 2001. That day will be another historical day and the most terrifying day to date. My heart goes out to all of the people who lost their loved ones..i hope god will give them the strenghness to cope with the pain and sorrow. Since the two planes slammed in to the twin tower and caused them to topple and two other planes crashed in the pentagon and pennsylvania area, all of the people life in america would not be the same... i'm still scrambling to understand who could commit such a heinous act?.

I just finished doing some sit-ups, since i watched britney spears diary on mtv...i promised to my self that i'm gonna do sit ups everyday..as much as i possible can, man..she really have the body to kill, she does sit ups 500 times a day..daang... Hmm..it's not that i don't appreciate my body, i like the way i am..but there are times when i wish i could be a few inches taller *who doesn't anyway?*, and have a build up stomach and skinnier legs.


Now i'm on my study break, i finished studying for sales management quiz tomorrow and i will study operations management after this...i'm chatting with dendre now...!. Ohh..i don't know what to eat tonight..for sure i don't want another indomie and i ate tuna noodle caserole this afternoon..so i can't eat the same thing for dinner. What about fettucini?..hmm..no thank you, i want some chicken...kentucky will be good maybe, or some chicken fingers for somewhere else.


Debbie said she's gonna be here..but she hasn't called me since, donna came to my room after we had lunch together in the tv room, she told me about the opening job in andersen consulting. Marilu came by here also to borrow my vacuum cleaner and laura stopped by for a while...we were gossiping about ivonne, hehe..the thing is she's always with lasslo (the hungarian guy), and we are just curious about it. Laura saw them holding hands at schnucks..hehe..maybe they are hooking up..:P

School is fine, it's pretty hectic this week and i've screwed two of my quizzes. My sales quiz was actually sooo easy BUT i didn't know that the quiz was gonna be over chapter 2, i thought it's gonna be over chapter 1 since that's the only chapter we've had covered to the day of the quiz..oh man. My finance quiz was..mmm, i know i could do it but i did some silly mistake, like there is a formula that we supposed to add the value, but what i did was multiply them both instead of adding them together...hee..hee...does that mean i know or i dont?..anyway, it's not like i don't make a big deal out of it, but hopefully it wouldn't hurt me at all, i know i need to spend some extra times for this class!.


My family? Haven't talked to them for a while, almost two weeks i guess?..i'm gonna call my mom some times this week..but i don't have a calling card..i hate it because i can't even purchase the calling card from that site, they always pending my order...gotta use dendre's credit card..hehe.


What else yaa?..i know next week and the week after that will gonna be even more hectic, next week we have to go to great shape and meet with the manager and i have to discuss about ASAF also with Debbie...i'll be the vice president ..yoohooo..:). i have my case due and marketing research exam next week and also my second sales management quiz.. these three things will always come every week!..well i don't wanna talk about the whole assignments thing, i know it's a lot and i just need to get them done..quickly!


You know what, everytime i think about aaliyah, it gives me this chill somehow, it such a big loss for the world that such a sweet and talented young-beautiful artist died in a very young age, i like her a lot. I always think she is pretty and you know..always have this nice attitude, don't talk a lot, she's sexy but not sleazy at all, her style is so sophisticated..i admired her in some way. I know i'm not a huge fan of her or anything, in fact i just started to like her a while ago..and i've been listening to her song "try again" and "we need a resolution" everyday since then...a couple times a day even!..so i'm a bit sad now knowing that she's gone and i really regret it for not trying to get to know her since long ago! i guess angel doesn't belong to earth, huh?.


I normally don't get this serious if some public figures passed away, like when princess diana died..you know the whole world was crying but i didn't really feel anything. I don't know what makes me take this so seriously..i guess it makes me even more realize that we can't take life for granted, we have to know and realize that someday we have to go and also have to let even our closest person go...! just thinking about this makes my eyes all watery!.


The thing that sadden me is the fact that she died in a tragic incident, plane crash. That is really something that i've been really scared of, it's not that i'm afraid of flying..i know i'm petrified of heights but being in an airplane is okay..in fact sometimes i miss the smell of airplanes and being there. But i always thinking about plane crash and all that...i know it's weird, but some times i imagine my self in an exploding plane and wondering what's gonna happen next, what's gonna happen to nduti?..to my family?..oh ..i guess i'm kinda have negative thinking here, always thinking about the worst and always expecting the worst...!. Not that i expecting it to happen...but you know...ugh, i don't even know how i get all these fear..maybe it's just because i'm away from my family and i am so worry about everything, i'm worried that somehow..something will separate us..and we will not be able to see each other anymore..permanently..maybe one day when i have got together with them again i can cut this stupid fear out of my mind totally!.


Every night before i go to bed, i always pray to god... i pray for everything that comes to mind..mostly i pray for him to keep me and all of the people i love in a good condition, good health, i pray for him to keep all of us away from danger and all the bad things and importantly gives all of us a long life. i always ask for strengh, patience and happiness. I ask GOD to give me and all of my family a chance to be together again in a whole lot better condition. I pray for my mom..for ibnu and hana..!. It's funny you know when i pray for hana and ibnu, sometimes i pray for little things...for instance sometimes i would pray for ibnu to eat more so he can get more meat in his body, hehehe...see..i care for even the slightest things.


I also pray for my self, you know.. to graduate soon with a high GPA, i know i won't be graduating with magna cum laude..but at least i still have some hopes to get a cum laude major GPA..! I pray for me to get a good job, wonderful career, and to experience a long-normal and wonderful life. What i mean by normal is you know just like everybody else, to have beautiful kids and everything...and last but not least i always ask for god to guide me thru my life and show me the way.


Nduti is always been in my prayer also, i pray for him to have an even brighter future and you know..praying that we are really meant for each other and that we can get married sometimes soon, i really want it to happen between today and december next year, i really hope it's gonna happen you know. I have been imagining raising a kid together with him..i really have been imagining down to the very single detail of everything....!. Hope you'll hear my prayer and granted me all that...amin!.

School is fine, it's pretty hectic this week and i've screwed two of my quizzes. My sales quiz was actually sooo easy BUT i didn't know that the quiz was gonna be over chapter 2, i thought it's gonna be over chapter 1 since that's the only chapter we've had covered to the day of the quiz..oh man. My finance quiz was..mmm, i know i could do it but i did some silly mistake, like there is a formula that we supposed to add the value, but what i did was multiply them both instead of adding them together...hee..hee...does that mean i know or i dont?..anyway, it's not like i don't make a big deal out of it, but hopefully it wouldn't hurt me at all, i know i need to spend some extra times for this class!.

My family? Haven't talked to them for a while, almost two weeks i guess?..i'm gonna call my mom some times this week..but i don't have a calling card..i hate it because i can't even purchase the calling card from that site, they always pending my order...gotta use dendre's credit card..hehe.

What else yaa?..i know next week and the week after that will gonna be even more hectic, next week we have to go to great shape and meet with the manager and i have to discuss about ASAF also with Debbie...i'll be the vice president ..yoohooo..:). i have my case due and marketing research exam next week and also my second sales management quiz.. these three things will always come every week!..well i don't wanna talk about the whole assignments thing, i know it's a lot and i just need to get them done..quickly!

You know what, everytime i think about aaliyah, it gives me this chill somehow, it such a big loss for the world that such a sweet and talented young-beautiful artist died in a very young age, i like her a lot. I always think she is pretty and you know..always have this nice attitude, don't talk a lot, she's sexy but not sleazy at all, her style is so sophisticated..i admired her in some way. I know i'm not a huge fan of her or anything, in fact i just started to like her a while ago..and i've been listening to her song "try again" and "we need a resolution" everyday since then...a couple times a day even!..so i'm a bit sad now knowing that she's gone and i really regret it for not trying to get to know her since long ago! i guess angel doesn't belong to earth, huh?.

I normally don't get this serious if some public figures passed away, like when princess diana died..you know the whole world was crying but i didn't really feel anything. I don't know what makes me take this so seriously..i guess it makes me even more realize that we can't take life for granted, we have to know and realize that someday we have to go and also have to let even our closest person go...! just thinking about this makes my eyes all watery!.

The thing that sadden me is the fact that she died in a tragic incident, plane crash. That is really something that i've been really scared of, it's not that i'm afraid of flying..i know i'm petrified of heights but being in an airplane is okay..in fact sometimes i miss the smell of airplanes and being there. But i always thinking about plane crash and all that...i know it's weird, but some times i imagine my self in an exploding plane and wondering what's gonna happen next, what's gonna happen to nduti?..to my family?..oh ..i guess i'm kinda have negative thinking here, always thinking about the worst and always expecting the worst...!. Not that i expecting it to happen...but you know...ugh, i don't even know how i get all these fear..maybe it's just because i'm away from my family and i am so worry about everything, i'm worried that somehow..something will separate us..and we will not be able to see each other anymore..permanently..maybe one day when i have got together with them again i can cut this stupid fear out of my mind totally!.

Every night before i go to bed, i always pray to god... i pray for everything that comes to mind..mostly i pray for him to keep me and all of the people i love in a good condition, good health, i pray for him to keep all of us away from danger and all the bad things and importantly gives all of us a long life. i always ask for strengh, patience and happiness. I ask GOD to give me and all of my family a chance to be together again in a whole lot better condition. I pray for my mom..for ibnu and hana..!. It's funny you know when i pray for hana and ibnu, sometimes i pray for little things...for instance sometimes i would pray for ibnu to eat more so he can get more meat in his body, hehehe...see..i care for even the slightest things.

I also pray for my self, you know.. to graduate soon with a high GPA, i know i won't be graduating with magna cum laude..but at least i still have some hopes to get a cum laude major GPA..! I pray for me to get a good job, wonderful career, and to experience a long-normal and wonderful life. What i mean by normal is you know just like everybody else, to have beautiful kids and everything...and last but not least i always ask for god to guide me thru my life and show me the way.

Nduti is always been in my prayer also, i pray for him to have an even brighter future and you know..praying that we are really meant for each other and that we can get married sometimes soon, i really want it to happen between today and december next year, i really hope it's gonna happen you know. I have been imagining raising a kid together with him..i really have been imagining down to the very single detail of everything....!. Hope you'll hear my prayer and granted me all that...amin!.

I usually don't like monday, but today is okay..maybe because it still the second week of class and we don't have that much of assignment to do yet. But i do have 1 case for this week, one homework, one quiz and one test...that's quite a lot..!. Well, maybe because i'm enjoying school right now, i just want to do all my work, finish all my classes, graduate and go away from here, it's not like i don't like it here, carbondale is such a friendly environment actually but.. i just can't wait to see the world and the opportunity it offers.

So today i had 2 classes, it was marketing channels and the management class, i sat together with marilu and karen. marilu and i went to the student center after the class cause she wanted to buy a cigaratte but then once we got there, she just realized that she didn't bring her wallet with her, so she borrowed money from me. We had lunch together at the dining table in ambassador hall. Anyway, she was telling me about her new relationship with vincent..hehe..i mean that was fast because they just met each other for less than 2 weeks, oh well...what can i say, love conquers everything!..Anyway, i'm just curious how debbie reacted about this news..

h..i'm sneezing right now, don't tell me that i'm gonna catch a flu or something....!.

I think i read too many magazines, watch too much TV, you know in media...there are a lot of stories about guys cheating on his girlfriend with her sister or her roomates, her bestfriends, her personal trainer, his ex girlfriend, his friends and all that. My estimation is in every 10 americans there are maybe only 2 who remains faithfull to his/her loved ones...and that makes you think like wow..you are in this world that full of unfaithful people and you really have to be aware of your situations...!. It's just sad you know...and for me, loyalty is like my top priority in a relationship among all, i value faithfullnes soo much that i even dislike someone who i know is not remain faithful to his/her significant others.

There is this show in MTV called temptation island, there was a couple who wanted to test their relationship, MTV then put them away of each other and they bring a couple girls to the guy and bring a couple guys to the girl, just to see whether the couple tempted to flirt around..so as the story goes, the girl passed the test, she didn't flirt around with any of the guys..but her boyfriend..oh my god, he was so tempted and he had a crush on one of the girls, they showed the video of them kissing by the window in his hotel room, and after that he just locked the door and CENSORED..that was the end of it, the end of the show..and the end of their relationship. How could you just blow out your relationship like that over some girls you don't even know..? I really hate that guy and that show makes me really sick when i first watched it, i even flipped to other channels if they played that shows over and over again, because i can't stand it..it gives a hole in my heart...i don't know why..but it really makes me sad..

Maybe this is the way i was raised, i really look up to my mom in term of loyalty, patience, tenderhearted and all that...she is more than hundred percent loyal to my dad, maybe she is too loyal *well..there is no such thing as too loyal, is there?*..yea maybe there is if we are loyal to a wrong person..anyway..

last weekend... Dendre came here on friday night.. We ate kahala that night and we also went to barnes noble..and the next day, we went to target, mall, walmart, and ate kahala again for dinner with ben too, we stopped by at his place..! On Sunday, we went to snhucks , international grocery and just drove around with ben's vans..!. That's it..that was lovely..i really feel comfortable when he is here with me..:)..

it's mid night, first day of this semester has passed, i have two classes today, one is the promotional concept and it's in the agriculture building..it's pretty far, i took an endless walk to get there, hehe..okay i'm exagerating. Anyway, we only spent 5 minutes in that class, the teacher..who happened to be chinese just giving out the syllabus and just explain some of the things about the course and he let us go. But my other class, which is management 318, the teacher explained the first chapter right away, can't he wait till next session?..


i went to see my advisor this afternoon, i was waiting for an hour in there, well..turned out that i still have 15 more credits to graduate, i thought i only have 9 or 10, well that's fine, i still can finish them up on spring semester, and hopefully there won't be any schedule conflict or anything or i'll be stuck in here for another semester. *no thanks*


so..i had the tuna subs for lunch from the wise guy, i used to like that a lot but i guess this one is not that good, maybe because i didn't put hot sauce on it and i didn't eat it with doritos...!. Kay came over here when i was chatting with nduti, linda and fuad..she needed to use the computer to check on her orders, she ordered a computer thru online from best buy.


Five minutes after Kay justify, somebody was knocking on my door again, and it was kay and On, hehe..kay told her that i have a really nice room and wanted to show it off to her, while in fact my room is still messy and all of the stuffs are not in the place where it belongs. Anyway, i just checked my hotmail e-mail, i was just curious about the layout because kay checked her hotmail email and the layout was totally different with mine. But when i checked mine, i found out they have new looks and everything and it looks nice, i almost wanted to use my hotmail again..hehe, but i have my klikmarketing email.

Sunday Morning...i'm really glad that class starts tomorrow, i know this semester is gonna be fast and i'm gonna rock!!..hehe..Anyhoo, i just got back..well at least an hour ago from dinner with all of the indonesian (mas heru, mbak susi, yoga, ben, mbak maya, mas abdul and cutie kania..too bad nduti justify this afternoon so he couldn't join us), we ate dinner at pizza hut and i ate 3 slices of pizza even though i wasn't hungry at all, in fact my stomach was still full of the chicken leg over rice from kahala. After that we stopped by at Mas heru place and den ben dropped me home.

Dendre was here the whole weekend.. He came here on friday around 7 o'clock, jay came along with him but he got off at the car dealer. That night, when he just arrived, he waited for me doing my SLA stuff at the student center and then we ate Mc Donalds. I was ready to leave the student center and debbie said it was okay for me not to go to the mentalist thing, so we justify but then on our way home we thought that it wouldn't be a bad idea if we watched the mentalist show, so we headed back to the student center. But I think the show hasn't started yet by the time we got to the auditorium, instead there was like a speaker trying to explain about the whole college thing and he was trying to look like a comedian. Not worth to see, so we just justify. We stopped by at Barnes Noble to get some ice cafe mocha and then we went to Walmart, i bought a couple of things but i didn't find all the things that i really need. We went home after that..

On saturday, went to eat kahala for lunch, i discovered the same menu as the ayam gosong at chinese restaurant in bloomington, it's not as good as that one tho but not bad at all, it's called chicken leg over rice in kahala. After that, we went to target and i bought quite a couple of things...and after finished shopping we went back to my room but we stopped by at the storage to pick up some of my stuff. There was this dance party held by SIU at the student center to welcome new students, so all of the sla had to be there too. Nduti went there with me and we met Ben, the party was not so entertaining, i don't like the songs and all that, so dendre and i just justify but i knew that the sla need to be there when the party ended to clean up the ballroom. So just went to Chicago hotdog, they just moved by the way, they moved next to sidetrack and the place is much bigger and nicer than the old one. That is really a good thing since some of the businesses here are closing down. Dendre ordered the philly cheese steak, hehe..i still remember that two summers ago, we used to eat there almost everyday, even dendre sometimes ate there twice in one day, the philly cheese steak was so good that we got to eat that all the time, and dendre figured it out that it's all the beginning of the BIG him, hehehe....!. We went back to the student center after that, and the party was over and the sla had a meeting outside the ballroom, but it was for only 5 minutes and we didn't have to clean up the ballroom....!.

Debbie and the others were planning to go to the stix after that, but i didn't feel like going to a club you know..besides, you won't ever find a decent club with a good music here, soo..forget it. But i did say that i might join them later tho...just for the sake of it.

So later on that night, yoga called and informed us that he has arrived and now is in the amtrak station. So we dragged our ass out and pick him up and drop him at mas heru's place because i don't have any place for him in my room, and i don't have extra comforter, blankets and all that, so he better sleep at mas heru's place. We hung out there for more than an hour and then we went home..

Today..i was still sleepy even tho i slept for what it seemed to be more than 9 hours. Mas heru also went to my room for a while,and after i took a shower and everything...we went to the uhaul place to pick up yoga's truck. I'm not sure how he's gonna make it but..i hope nothing bad happened and he'll get there safely..amiin. i really do pray for him you know because it's just scary to imagine him driving down the uhaul all the way to indiana, without any experience of driving a car in the states, let alone a full loaded truck. But..i don't know..i think something might happen, but i assume it's only something small tho, like maybe he bump into something and the car get slightly dented..i don't know...i hope not tho...!

After we got the truck, we went to the storage and loaded all of his stuff to the car, so the storage is empty now, and after that we went to kahala..another chicken leg over rice, and then we went to seventen, i needed to buy some textbooks. But then dendre suggested me to check the price at the university bookstore first since i will get 15% discount as a sla. So we went to university bookstore, they have the same price but since i got the discount there, so it's quite cheaper, i could save around 30 something i guess.

At 3.25 i had to go to kaskasia room to attend to student involvement session, so i went there..it only took 20 minutes, dendre and yoga was waiting outside.

So we had a picnic, i know i came a bit late..like 20 minutes late maybe, but there was no point of me being on time anyway, doesn't make any difference, it's not like i had a duty or responsibility. The important thing was i was there at the picnic and i was there during the choir and the meeting. Yupe, we had a meeting around 6 o'clock, it was a wrapped up kind of meeting and we got out certificate.

So..how is it like being an SLA (student life advisor)?..well i don't know..i'm not proud of becoming an sla though and this is not what i expected. Most people were sad that the orientation was over but i wasn't sad at all, i didn't feel anything...maybe because i don't feel like a big family of the SLA'S. I don't know who they are and everything, i couldn't even named 8 of them..i mean outside the international SLA, and i think it was the stupid thing that they handed out the angket about who is the most enthusiastic sla, who is the sla who has the most saluki spirit and all that, how can i answer that when we don't even know the name of all the people?..

I thought as an sla, we will have so much responsibilities and duties, i thought i will spend every minute of my time helping and assisting all of the students, I thought i will be so busy and hardly have time for my self. But..most of the time i found my self just sitting around being bored at ISS or just chatting around with other people.

i just feel like most of the assignment given was not clear enough. I know i was assigned at Housing sections but i didn't even have enough information about the housing, i'd like to know every detail of it before i let my self being asked by the students about all the apartments and dormitory, and i don't think it was really helpful tho..well..i know some people got their housing from us but still you know. For example is that we have a list of apartments to give out to the new students, but so what? they can get the list from the newspaper....and by giving out the list the students still need to call the landlord and find the address by themselves..what they need is the transportation to get there, how to approach the landlord, etc.i mean..i don't know..maybe it's just me, but if i'm helping someone..i want to fully help him/her till he/she get what he/she wants, i don't like to leave them hanging just like that. Ooh..it's just hard to explain...!.

The other thing that i don't really like is this orientation is not really well organized, i know they are trying..but they didn't encourage students to come to each of the orientation and participate in that. So only a couple people showed up during the library tour, the train tour, etc... Overall, the good thing about being an sla is that i got to meet quite a bunch of people....Well, it's over now..

i'm just gonna read the glamour magazine i bought at the shnucks, ooh
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forgot to tell you that i went to international grocery and schnucks with yoga and his truck, hehehe... posted by hanzky at

..it's been more than a week since the last time i wrote here. yea, i've been really really busy with the orientation staff, well not like i have a lot to do when i'm at the ISS, but i just have to be around there in case someone needs help or something. This orientation started last monday and we have been there since 8 in the morning till 7 at night. Today is okay cos i just need to give them the library tour at 2, maybe it will take about an hour or so then the next thing is at 7 o clock, so i will have a chance to go home and..i dont know..do some stuff like unpack my stuff maybe, my room is just like a plane crash..you can't even see the floor..


So, it's been 5 days since dendre and i have been away of each other, not long but enough to make me miss him....he justify on sunday afternoon after he dropped me off at the student center. But last tuesday, i stopped by at his place..for only like 15 minutes, debby wanted to pick up yanos at the airport and she asked if i wanted to come down with her so i could stop by at nduti's, hehe..


Living in ambassador hall is okay i guess, except for the fact that it's not so easy for me to eat, i mean it's not like that i always cook but it's just that i don't like to be going in and out the communal kitchen whenever i feel like eating. . Anyway, there are a lot of people here in ambassador hall, i met some of them....laura is living on the same wing with me but her room is all the way at the end, and ivonne room is just accross from laura's room. Upstairs, there are yoko..the japanese girl, marilu from peru.., next to marilu's room is martha's room. Kay room is upstairs too but i forgot what number she is in, and ON is also on my floor. I don't have like a close friend or anything here, but i think i know enough people to make me feel comfortable. I get along with Kaori okay, debbie is nice too.. The rest of the guy are okay, the malaysian group like paul, yap, ling are nice, well it's not like i wanted to get close with them. but they are good, the nigerian like wally, niyi, dotun and nsikak are fine too..i click with them, i mean they are nice and funny too..they always crack me up..haha


Hmm, i don't know what else to write..i'm trying to convince dendre to come over here tonight..but i know he'll be tired and all that so maybe it's okay if he just come down here tomorrow till sunday, either tonight or tomorrow..i will still see him right? but i prefer tonight tho........! Well, i think that's it for now..i'm trying to build ASAF website and maybe just cleaning up my room..it smells like onion!!

..it's been more than a week since the last time i wrote here. yea, i've been really really busy with the orientation staff, well not like i have a lot to do when i'm at the ISS, but i just have to be around there in case someone needs help or something. This orientation started last monday and we have been there since 8 in the morning till 7 at night. Today is okay cos i just need to give them the library tour at 2, maybe it will take about an hour or so then the next thing is at 7 o clock, so i will have a chance to go home and..i dont know..do some stuff like unpack my stuff maybe, my room is just like a plane crash..you can't even see the floor..

So, it's been 5 days since dendre and i have been away of each other, not long but enough to make me miss him....he justify on sunday afternoon after he dropped me off at the student center. But last tuesday, i stopped by at his place..for only like 15 minutes, debby wanted to pick up yanos at the airport and she asked if i wanted to come down with her so i could stop by at nduti's, hehe..

Living in ambassador hall is okay i guess, except for the fact that it's not so easy for me to eat, i mean it's not like that i always cook but it's just that i don't like to be going in and out the communal kitchen whenever i feel like eating. . Anyway, there are a lot of people here in ambassador hall, i met some of them....laura is living on the same wing with me but her room is all the way at the end, and ivonne room is just accross from laura's room. Upstairs, there are yoko..the japanese girl, marilu from peru.., next to marilu's room is martha's room. Kay room is upstairs too but i forgot what number she is in, and ON is also on my floor. I don't have like a close friend or anything here, but i think i know enough people to make me feel comfortable. I get along with Kaori okay, debbie is nice too.. The rest of the guy are okay, the malaysian group like paul, yap, ling are nice, well it's not like i wanted to get close with them. but they are good, the nigerian like wally, niyi, dotun and nsikak are fine too..i click with them, i mean they are nice and funny too..they always crack me up..haha

Hmm, i don't know what else to write..i'm trying to convince dendre to come over here tonight..but i know he'll be tired and all that so maybe it's okay if he just come down here tomorrow till sunday, either tonight or tomorrow..i will still see him right? but i prefer tonight tho........! Well, i think that's it for now..i'm trying to build ASAF website and maybe just cleaning up my room..it smells like onion!!

haven't written in here for a couple of days, lots of things happened. Last Tuesday, we went to the airport to pick up mbak maya and mas abdul. I thought they were going to sleep over here but then their car was fixed so they decided to drive forward to carbondale, but they did came over for a while

I have some good news to tell...first is about the cable modem..yey..:), we finally got our cable modem yesterday, it's so much faster and smoother, oh i wish we've ordered this long time ago, i'm sure we would already have cds stack up in the house, cos that's exactly what we're doing now, hehehe. I'm listening to kopi dangdut right now, hehee...that's my all time favorite dangdut song.

Second good news is i have 3 emails for klikmarketing, 2 of them said that we have done a great job and they wanted klikmarketing to join the workshop/conference that they hold this coming september, isn't that such an honor?..There was this guy who email me, he said he wanted to join the klikmarketing team, hehe..like we have a team?..anyway...

Third good news is Kim email me and she said that she has a room booked for me on the second floor, facing the basketball court, perfect, just how i wanted my room to be. anyway...i only have a couple days justify..hix...

I don't know what else to write in here...i guess i'll write later!

friday

Right when i just stepped out of the bathroom, I heard some voices in my answering machine, i didn't hear the phone ringing, anyway..i thought it was dendre..i picked it up and..it was mas abdul. All three of them got stuck in the highway on the way to the airport, their car broke down, thank god it's just near here, so i drove down there to pick them up, it was like 2.15 or something and they have been there since 1 o'clock. they have been calling me but the line was engaged, they called the cell phone but dendre didn't hear it and they call dendre at the office but he wasn't in his room, poor them.


Anyway, i took them to the house and mas abdul took care of the towing and all that. They supposed to leave to DC at 2 o'clock but of course they have missed it, but there is still a chance for them to catch the 7 o'clock flight. So...Mbak maya and I just waited at home while Mas Abdul went to meet the person from the towing company. At 4.45, we went to the station and picked up dendre and then we drove them to the airport, lucky them, they can get on board. After that, dendre and i just went home..he took a shower and all that and we ate dinner at the new china, it's not bad, it's pretty good. After that, we went to the party at the park in front of the apt, hehe...there were a lot of people from all ages there, they had like dance floor for teenagers.. and on the other side of park was a country band and everybody were dancing and enjoying the music, and there were a lot of rides too, some scary one. We went home at 11.30.


Saturday

we went around and visited almost every single store, hehe..first we went to the mall, dendre bought me an orange turtle neck tiny tee at the rave, thank you nduti..:)). Then we had lunch at the food court, panda express...orange chicken and mandarin chicken, dendre had some chick-a fila, he's addicted to it. I forgot what's the chronological order, but after that, we went to TJ Maxx, Wallgreens, Walmart, Borders....Dendre bought some t-shirt and pants for work at tj maxx. dendre also bought Yani CD, at first we went to walmart and then we went to borders cos dendre wanted to buy the cd. Turned out that it was more expensive in Borders than in Walmart, so we had to drive back to Walmart and get the cd..hehe.. a lot of running around involved.. We also stopped by at BlockBuster and rent..ooh i forgot the title..anyway, it's a black action comedy, not bad...but i'm not recommend it to anyone either, hehe..


Sunday

Went to eat at burger king and i had double cheeseburger, after that we went to wash the car, we went to two places since the vacuum in the first place didn't work quite good. After that we went to blockbuster to rent another movie... sweet november, keanu reeves ..! Last stop was snhucks, dendre bought a metro pass card...!. At 8 o clock, we went to eat dinner at Taco Bell and Pizza Hut (they are happen to be in the same place!), i had some beef supreme chalupas and dendre had some cheese pizza. After that..we just went home, i did some ironing...and bajaj called, he said he's gonna make me the card on wednesday for sure...i hope so!

I'm eating banana split a la hanzky right now, hehehe. I have been in front of the computer for a couple hours now, my eyes are really tired and i think i need to add more power on my glasses too. But i'm glad i had figuring out how to make the templates work, because we just reboot the computer so i had to set up some of the klikmarketing files all over again. I chatted with astrid this morning and i have finally finishing my email for her, it's like 7 pages in microsoft word, no double spaces...!. anyway, budi msg me also but i just ignored him, hehehe...dendre chatted with him yesterday, but dendre was pretending to be a friend of mine and they were like arguing or something, hehehe...that guy is so freakig annoying

I called Kim to ask about my room reservation, she said if i don't come earlier, i might not get the room that i want but there's plenty of other room that i can choose, well..that don't really matter i think...

It's thursday morning, my last day of school here at SWIC, well..SWIC is okay, but john a logan is a lot better for sure...the thing i like at SWIC is the teacher are really really nice, especially my biology teacher ..! anyway, i've been trying to change the template but for some reasons it just doesn't work. I just finished my breakfast ..it's egg and cheese biscuit from mc donalds..my favorite breakfast menu. i ordered from the drive thru window on my way home after dropping dendre at the metro station. When they handed me my order, i don't know why..but i sensed like something is wrong with my order, i was afraid they put the sausage on it even though i did tell them that i just want egg and cheese...as simple as that. So as i got home and checked it, well..it's not the sausage..it's the cheese!!..they didn't put any cheese on it...urgh..the best part of of the biscuit is the cheese....*ugh*...so i tried to use the one in the refrigator instead...


I called my mom just now, and halehidah was there and mom said all of them will go to Bandung this weekend to attend ka denny's wedding *congratulation*..!. I called my mom just to make sure that everything is okay, because i had a nightmare last night and it scares the hell out of me. I dreamt that my mom and Ibnu joined the survivor show..(okay, that was quite funny), i didn't know how it went but next thing i knew i found them here in the states and they were soo skinny i could see the bones sticking out from their body and they were so worn out, so pale and covered with muds, their clothes were tattered and mom was even had no clothes on her top...oh my god..=(, it was so strange, they seemed like they couldn't walk anymore and almost fainted.


So I was so shocked when i saw them and i ran into them and i hugged them and asked them what happened, but they were so weak they couldn't even open their mouth..*oh god..* So i took them to some house, i don't know whose house it was but there was no bed or anything in that house so then i ran into my grandma's house which was accross the street, and i borrowed some blankets from her and she also gave me some foods, and then i fed my mom and Ibnu..it's like they have never seen food for years, they told me they have been eating worms and all that ..ooh..=(.


I hugged ibnu all the time, i still can feel him in my arms now..=( , i remember he was soo light... and then i was like planning what i was gonna do next, like i planned to take them to a hotel so they could rest for a couple of days, i planned to supply them with lots and lots of foods and i also planned to take them to the doctor and i was like made a promise to my self that i will take a good care of them for the rest of my life...that i will never ever let them suffering like that..=(. .


Oh man, thank god it was just a dream, but that was deep and feel like real... and it really gets to me you know, in fact i'm a bit sad right now....ohh i wish they were here with me...I miss all of them.!...and hope that dream is not like a sign of something bad..ooh, let's just not get into that, i hope that's just because i missed them so bad and so the other way around...

History test was okay,  I didn't study that much tho..because the material that covered on test were Judaism, Christianity and Islam. I felt like I didn't have to study the Islam part since I was born with it . Anyway...Ilike this history class, it's a history of religion class, but I prefer if it's more like a discussion thing..with no test or anything...:), because it really is interesting. To be honest, this class makes me think that all religions are basically the same, especially the acosmic religion like Judaism, Christian, Islam, Baha'i and all that. I didn't know that Islam in fact is the youngest religion, I thought Islam like the first religion ever..hehe. I think that's how I believed all this long!..Now I've learned that Islam came after Judaism and that's why we have a lot in common with Jewish. I also learned that basicly all religions established of the same reason. Somebody who then called its founder figure claimed that he received a message from God and then he spread it to all of the people...!.

So my question is, how do we know which one is the one if there is more than one who claimed that he received a message from God?...I don't know..it's not like Im starting to doubt my own religion or anything, but it makes me think that maybe all religion is almost the same, at least it aims to bring people to do good deeds right?..Well, my teacher made a good point, he said that we don't have to bother whether all the history that we have been told were trully happened or not, whether the founder really received the message or whether all the miracle things were really happened...what's matter is that the story have a good purpose..to tell people that they have to do good things to others...!.so..yea...I follow him .