HANZKY

It's cold outside and it's raining too...and they even announce a thunderstorm warning on TV just now!. That's bizzare, especially when it felt like 70 degrees yesterday and the sun shone brightly. i was just about to say goodbye to my winter attributes yesterday..but today's weather makes me have to reconsider all that, i can't believe how cold it is right now. Anyway, this website is not done yet and i still want to add things and do some touch up here and there...but i'm just soo attached to all these basketball game that i can't even glance away from the TV screen. This has been indeed a very great tournament, there's been head to head battle going on, a lot of over times and some surprise upsets, it's march madness baby!!.and tonight is THE night....we'll see if my school team can send all those bull raiders back to where they belong!!..

I watched MTV last night, MTV is good when you haven't watched it for a while, but it stinks when you watch it everyday because reruns is all there is to it.

Anyway, there was the osbournes show last night...it was hilarious..huaha...i wonder if it's a one time show or a sequence show cause i'm looking forward for the next one...!

They also showed MTV cribs last night...Travis' house -one of the guy in BLINK 182- is gotta be my favorite house by far, the decoration is such a fine taste of artistic minimalism. I love every single thing in there, the white/off white and black leather coaches, the living room table, the fishtank. I also love the TV room and the bedroom, i'm sure it feels nice and peaceful to be lying on the bed with noises of water sprinkle in the background.. and oh..i can't forget this, the swimming pool!!. The pool area looks very much like a tropical island somewhere..with palm trees and everything..just like heaven..*i think*..

listening to Oops oh my remix by Tweet, featuring Ghetto Fabolous and Missy Elliott.

the beat is off the hook...and i'm still amazed with the lyrics...

Ayoo siapa ayoo yang mindahin?..*lho kok*, hehehe…!!. Sebenernyaa..ini tuh judul buku as some of you are probably know or even have read the book. It’s an easy to read book, very thin book with big fonts, so an hour is probably what you need to finish it. Anyway, this book is about how different characters handle changes differently. Which one is going to extinct and which one is going to survive?


Overall, I think this is an OK book, nothing new and not an excellent self-improvement book. The book also doesn't convey a deeper message, as the message only revolves around the importance of embracing the change..blablabla..but doesn’t scrutinize all the details that needs to be considered. Well, since I got it at a used bookstore..i don’t regret buying the book, hihi.


So..while we're on that subject, let's talk a little bit about change....For me, i think changes are something that always going to happen to us no matter what and no matter how we want things to stay the way we like it, it is gonna change eventually and it’s inevitable!!..So, be prepared…don’t look at change as losing something, but look at it as gaining something..

You know what, I was just about to click the post and publish button when suddenly an error message popped up and it just closed all of the windows.. so I lost the long ass entry I’ve written here..=(. Dammit I hate it when the computer does that!!. Anyway, I was just rambling about the mall I first time visited this afternoon..oh why haven’t I been there since long time ago because this mall, -even though it’s not that big- have stores beyond my wildest dream!!..*hihi, hiperbola banget!*. Anyway, i gotta get back there sometimes soon because we were there only for a while since we have to be home at 5 to watch the NCAA selection. We got back just in time because it started as soon as I turned the TV on and 2 minutes later…oh boy..*this is getting exciting* they announced the salukis, my school basketball team.. which I’m a big fan of, as one of the teams that got selected. Wohoo. I couldn’t be happier, it had been a week of a long wait in uncertainty, so glad they make it cause they are truly deserve it.


Anyhoo..they will be playing against Texas tech this coming Friday in Chicago…oh I would love to go there to watch the game, too bad I can only watch it on TV this time *If they show it on TV that is* I hope they beat the red raiders on this first round..so I can see some actions of the infamous-bad tempered bob knight throwing out chairs..*laugh*

Went to the mall and I spotted a new parfume by victoria secret, it's very sexy FOR HIM

Hmm, actually i'm not sure if it's really a new arrival or not *hihi*, it's been a while since my last visit to victoria secret, soo..forgive me for that. Anyway, it smells so good, so fresh yet so sexy and masculine, and it comes with a luxury package and bottle. So..my point here is.. if your loved one is celebrating his birthday anytime soon or it's your anniversary next week..you don't need to look anywhere else, this is the ultimate gift for sure. and..also don't worry if you don't have any special occasion, just get it first and find a reason later..=). guarantee you don't wanna be steps away from him *promosi abis*

bangs are back, and they are cute..or so i thought, that is why i was attempted to get me a haircut and have cute little bangs framed my face..but i guess i should've known better because obviously it doesn't work for me like it does for all the models in the magazine...*huhuu..makanya jangan suka ikut ikutan* .. Duh..di apain dong yaa mendingan?. *cari cari bandana and bobby pins*..

That was the song that wrapped up the game tonight...let's just say that all the long walk to the arena in a freezing night and the 8 bucks i paid for the ticket cause i lost my student id was worth it. I just couldn't describe the passion, the energy of the crowd and the player, the happiness that shows in everyone face that was there tonight at the arena....the crowd were like screaming down to their throat when the announcer announced that creighton lost the game...and that means we go up to the first position this season. Kudos to all of the players and the coach, it's been a great year for them and finally their hardwork is paid off...i know it's just about time.. Well..i can't wait for the weekend for the mvc tournament..we already got the ticket, and i'm going to 710 tomorrow to get my SIU t-shirt or jumper or something...i need to feel the spirit yoo..be all maroon this saturday..=) Seeyaaa

Tonight is the last home game for the basketball..i really want to watch it..but the thing is..i have to drag my lazy ass all the way to arena in this 30 degrees weather..will i be able to do that?..hehe, i don't know..well i guess it's okay as long as i go there with a bunch of people. Donna and Martha want to go there too but they have class till 7.30, means that we probably can get there like past 8 or something...and is it worth it to watch just a half hour game after that long walks?..hmm..have to think about it though...well i might just go, everybody is there cheering and yelling supporting the salukis and i can't just sitting here in front of my computer without knowing what's going on over there...........so..we'll see!


I have a lot to do this week, i have this presentation for my B2B class, the case is pretty long and we have to do a little bit research and write the paper too. I also have oral presentation for my business communication class but this shouldn't be a big deal since it's only gonna be 1 minute long. What else i have to do for this week? oh ya i have to go to edwardsville to attend the career fair there, so i'm sleeping over at nduti's wednesday night..=). Pheww..there's just so many things, not too mention marketing policy case, the project for next week (we need to start collecting the information this week) and so on and so forth. Oh by the way, i also have an interview tomorrow at 6...wish me luck okay?. Who knows next week i'll be on my desk in their office next week..=).


I had a good weekend, nduti was here. As usual we ate at Kahala, but this time we also ate at dennys, we discussed about ben's problem, went to pinch penny and the strip, we even went to hotspot eventhough we didn't get in, damn the outlook and the environment was not attempting enough for us to go inside..it's like in the middle of cornfields with bunch of hillbillies...!. We also stopped by at mas heru's, driving around..checked out the design boutique office, we went to the mall, we went to the evening with ICE-T *i love that* and so on and so forth. Ohh..i almost forget this, we also went to the shelter to check out the kittens they have over there, they have 2 adorable kittens that i just wanna take them home..... Hmm, what else was happened last weekend ya? ohh..you know what, i've been carless since yesterday..nduti took the car key with him and both of us didn't realize it till it's too late and too far for him to go back and give me the key..*lol*. So..that's why i have to walk if i want to watch the game tonight...!. But nduti has sent the key this morning though, so it should be here by tomorrow. Otherwise i won't be able to make it to the interview...


Ohh it's so hot in here and i'm wearing my sweater...i don't feel like changing my clothes since i'm leaving in a little while...so i guess i'll talk to you later...! and by the way, aan emailed me and she said that dina dini's brother is moving to st louis in two weeks..hmm, at first i kind of get excited but then i remembered that i think he already have this bad image of me built in his mind. I don't know if he still remember all about that though..the story that dina dini told him when we were still in Perth..it still make me upset somehow.

I'm tired..i really do, i woke up at a 7 o'clock this morning as i had class at 8. That is the earliest class i have so far since i've been here. When i was in Perth, i had so many early classes, i think i had one that started 7.30 and i lived quite far away from campus, i actually had to take 2 busses to go there, and the bus stop was not right in front of the campus either, it took me like 10 minutes to walk from the bus stop to the campus. Sure it was a long journey but looking back..i don't think i complained much about it, in fact i was kinda enjoying the morning view and morning ritual that i had to go through..such as, you know..went to the small deli at the station in the city, bought a small carton of chocolate milk, and also chicken and cheese corn dog for breakfast *no wonder i was so ballooned last time*. My favorite part of the morning ritual was the trip itself, especially from the station in the city to the campus, my favorite seat on the bus was on the justify side by the window...and as far away from the driver so he couldn't caught me eaiting my breakfast *hehe*.


On the way to the campus, we always passed the swan river and no matter how often i've been driving pass the river, it still gives me the best feeling inside... something called peace. I miss Perth a lot you know, i know it wasn't the best city in the world but it still my favorite place and one day..i promised to go there with nduti and show him every bit of the place.


i dreamt about ibnu exactly a week ago, and it was in two consecutive days. It wasn't a nice dream, really...because i dreamt that he was so sick and just so thin and so weak, i felt really bad when i woke up..i felt like something must be happening and i was planning to call home but...i don't know why i just didn't, i guess i forgot or something. Two days later, my mom called..i sensed something wrong right away...she rarely calls me so when she calls..it must be something somewhat important. So i picked it up..and it's true..ibnu had been sick for like 5 days, he got a fever, his temperature was pretty high, he caught a cold and it was just bad. Oh my god..i was so scared, i just couldn't see or hear a little kid get sicks, it must be hard for them to fight with the desease. But thank god he's okay now..and that's just what i need to hear...*i love him so bad*.. So..whatelse..can't think about anything else right now. i'm just gonna lie low on my bed...

Yohoo…I have finally finished the International Student Council webpage this afternoon, at the very last moment. I realize that it’s far away from perfect, but that’s my goal..just to get it done, not to get it done with perfection here and there, i’m not responsible directly for that anyway..*sigh*. It’s almost 4 o’clock today, now i’m just waiting for dendre to call me to tell me that he is leaving the office, and then i would pick him up in about 15 minutes later. Okay so since it’s still new year season, then it’s not too late for me to make my new year resolution. *hey everybody have one, so i want one to..=)*

1. Hmm, firstly..my resolution is to graduate from school this may, i’m sure this can be accomplished.., i mean logically i can finish everything by may this year, but who knows if something bad happen down the road right? *wish not wish not wish not*

2. I want my whole family to come here for my graduation day, i want my mom, hana, ibnu and dad. And i want my lovely grandma too. I want her to meet hal dillah, i think it’s been like 8 years already since they have been apart, and grandma coming here is the only way they could meet. Stay healthy ya emah, i’ll talk to mom and dad to bring you along with them..i love you..

3. My third plan for this year is to get an internship in st.louis for the summer, i hope this can be accomplished.

4. My fourth plan for this year…is to start my MBA at maryville by august, hopefully i can get started with it on time. And while i’m in the program, i also have to get a job to help me with my expenses. Professional Job is preferable, but sales associate at the mall is also appreciated.

5. What’s number five?. Hmm..okay, this will happen if number 2 is happening, i want my parents and nduti to get along. Well it’s not that they don’t get along with them, with the distance and everything, it’s hard to get them gather together and have a meaningful interaction, we only went home twice so far… Dendre and my mom are getting along okay though..i know they are never engaged in deep and long conversation together. so this summer would be the perfect time

6. trying to use big words..so i’ll sound important..hahaha..j/k

7. Wow, it’s number 7 already…for this..i want maintain a better relationship with nduti. I love the way everything works now..but there are still rooms for improvement…

8. Number eight is…i want to improve my life. What i mean here is like i want to exercise to live a healthy lifestyle..the last time i went exercising was like..last summer..see i haven’t been living in a healthy life..therefore i need to get my ass to the rec center and try to sweat. Besides exercising..i also want to get closer to GOD, pray as often as i could and experience my spiritual moment. I want to have a moment where i realize that..hmm, i don’t know..kinda hard to explain. I was just about to type “the moment where i realize that he’s exist”. But i guess that will describe me that i don’t believe that he is there. I was born muslim, so i believe there is GOD up there. But i just wanna have my moment you know…i have been hearing some stories that some people have their moment of realizing that he is there, they have their own experience, not like daily routine of experience..a different one. I am sure it feels so special and they should be grateful for that. Well i guess i need to do my duty as a muslim first before i can ask him to show me that he is there..watching over me..right?

Oh i can go on and on and on about my new year resolution. But those are what i can think of right now. I am very thankful of what God have given me all my life, i am very grateful of everything. I am very excited that i live in another year of my life and i embrace 2002 with open arms..=).

Hmmm...i didn't realize that this semester will be another torture, i actually was feeling that this semester will be a breeze for me....but after i thoroughly read the syllabus...hmm..wrong thought girl!!. I really have to give 100% of my mind on this semester and fully understanding the materials, get in-depth knowledge about marketing concept, and do the project with my maximized efforts. I am sure that will help me a lot in the real world...well at least that what my professor said. Actually, i like the projects that the professors has given us, they seem so challenging and i can't wait to be engaged in the process. But the thing that kinda bothering me today is..my groups!!. Well, i don't know them well enough to judge...but i just don't feel comfortable with them since i didn't know them before and they seemed a little laid back. I was hoping i could be in the group with carson and loukas, just like in marketing 390...we worked well together. I hope my new group (3 of them) will be doing just fine and we have no trouble working with each other.


I went to faner computer lab after class, i promised ben to meet him at 3, but he didn't show up until quarter past 3 so i called him, and he was waiting for me at the library..hehe..gimana siih?? Vero was there too at the last minute...and then ben drove us home. Remember the black dude who works at the registeration office?? i think i talked about him yesterday. I was on my way to my class from the student center when suddenly i heard someone yelled.."yo..wait up", there was no one around so i figured he was shouting at me. So i turned around..and it was him, oh my god..what does he want??. He started making converstion, ask about my name, my major, bla bla bla and he asked me what i'm gonna do this weekend. I said i'm going to st.louis for the weekend, and he was like.."oh, okay..so we can't meet this weekend then"..excuse me?. So you are assuming that i can and would want to meet you given that i don't have anything this weekend?...y'right