whenever it's freezin outside, my ears are the one that's affected the most..i really need some ear plug or something..!. Pheww, i'm done for today's assignment..i don't care anymore if they are all far from perfect...i did my best..and dendre has done his best too. The website is pretty cool tho, i think that's the perfect one among the other stuff..hope Dr. Bruner will like it..it'll be awesome if we could put some sound on the website also actually..but there is no way we could do it with such a short period of time.
My exam today was okay, i didn't study that much but i think i did okay..but i was pissed off that i changed one of my answer because i look at the answer sheet that belongs to the girl who sits next tome..and when i get out of the class and i checked the answer with my notes..damn, my first answer was the correct one. isn't that
stupid..? How come you trust other more than you trust yourself?
I'm talking to azelin in yahoo messenger right now...it is so sweet to talk to an old friend who was once really close to you, well..lin is not just a bestfriend, she's more like a sister to me..and i still feel close to her..even though we don't really talk a lot..(now is the first time i talked to her since a few months ago)..we're still close at heart. The way i look at it..she's like a resemble of an angel..i mean, that girl does not have a mean bone in her body..she's supernice!.
i guess i talk to you later, i need to clean up my room since it's messy all around...
My exam today was okay, i didn't study that much but i think i did okay..but i was pissed off that i changed one of my answer because i look at the answer sheet that belongs to the girl who sits next tome..and when i get out of the class and i checked the answer with my notes..damn, my first answer was the correct one. isn't that
stupid..? How come you trust other more than you trust yourself?
I'm talking to azelin in yahoo messenger right now...it is so sweet to talk to an old friend who was once really close to you, well..lin is not just a bestfriend, she's more like a sister to me..and i still feel close to her..even though we don't really talk a lot..(now is the first time i talked to her since a few months ago)..we're still close at heart. The way i look at it..she's like a resemble of an angel..i mean, that girl does not have a mean bone in her body..she's supernice!.
i guess i talk to you later, i need to clean up my room since it's messy all around...
i'm doing my objective three for my research class..there is only one word for this project..boring. I should have taken only this one class for the whole semester, i mean seriously..this class is so so so much work that i feel like i could do better in my other class if my time is not so consumed by this class.
I just got back from Great Shape..the fitness center to get cathy signature for the client approval form, and i also went to the arena to buy the tickets for saturday game. Mbak Titi just called and she invited me to have dinner (it's actually buka puasa) in her house this friday..cool, i sure could use some more indonesian food..hehe. I'm not fasting today by the way..*shame on me*...
well, that's all..i need to finish my project..i'll get back to you in a little while..=)
Okay, i'm sitting here in my computer desk, struggling to do my research project, but of course..unsuccessfully.! i miss my nduti and now i have this idea on my mind about marrying him, hehehe....!. you think i'm just kidding, don't you? you won't believe that i actually have done some head way on planning the big thing..=), i talked to my mom the other day, and i said to her about my plan to get married with nduti next year..=), and she agrees with that, even though i know that doesn't mean she will go running around finding me a wedding gown next week..*grin*..hehe, she just said okay but of course there are things that needs to be put into consideration before making such a huge commitment. She suggested me to pray like this.."Ya Tuhan, tolong dekatkan lah kami kalau dia memang jodoh saya, dan tolong jauh kan lah kalau dia ternyata bukan jodoh saya.."..
well..let me tell you something mom....i did pray like that for like hundreds times when i was in Perth...and now i'm here with him, closer than ever...=), so i hope that's a sign from God. And..since that line of pray does not work for me anymore...i found a new one..
"Ya Tuhan, kalau dia memang jodohku, dekatkanlah...
Tapi kalau bukan jodohku, jodohkanlah....
Kalau dia memang bukan jodohku, jangan sampe dia dapet jodoh yang lain selain aku...
Kalau dia jodoh orang lain, putuskanlah!, jodohkanlah dengan ku....
Amin...".
hahaha....
so happy right now..feel so relieved and no pressure at all. The reason is because i'm done for the week, i just took my research test..i think i handled the multiple choice questions okay, i'm not sure about the essay part tho..not that bad i hope..*i need those 40 bonus points*, beside that..i'm happy because i got 93 for my finance quiz...yey...=), i'm also happy because i talked to debbie last night about ASAF and i told her that it's better for me to quit...she was okay with that..i guess, well she was just smiling and telling me not to worry..she said she's not mad at me or anything..so that means she's cool right ? *i hope she's telling the truth*?. Oh yes so i don't have to go to all of the meetings and don't have to bother about the activities and all that..if they have an event and if i can come i can come and if i can't..no pressure...oh that's so wonderful. Especially since they have a general meeting right now and i'm so not in the mood to participate..hehe.
Another reason why i feel so happy is because tomorrow is friday..and i'm going to see my nduti..=), i'm not sure if i only spend the weekend over there or i make it straight till thanksgiving..we'll see!.
I just cleaned up my room a little bit..can't believe how messy it was. Now i'm updating klikmarketing here and there..i love my klikmarketing and i don't want to just leave it like that..i want to maintain it and update it as often as i can. There are still people visiting the site anyway.
What else yaa..oh i called my mom last night..around 2 in the morning..she wasn't home..i just wanted to ask about the package i sent from here the other day, i tracked it on the website..it's said it has arrived in Jakarta, i hope the post office folks does not mess around with my package cos i read in kafegaul forum that a lot of people complaining about jakarta's post office, most of them get their package stolen and they actually change it to some illegal stuff so that they can charge them or fine them. that's pathetic..! I hope my package gets there safely..untouch!
Anyway, i met martha on the way back from school this afternoon and she told me she cooked rendang today and asked me to have dinner with her...hehe...my pleasure martha..=)
I'm at school now..in rehn hall computer hall..my class won't start for another 45 minutes..i don't know what to do..so i decided to just messing around with this. lately i'm running out of idea what websites to visit..i just got bored to see the same thing over and over again.
Anyway, i just had quarter pounder for lunch..it sure is make my stomach full. You know how i've been thinking about resigning from ASAF right..? Well i finally decided to tell debbie this afternoon in the student center..i was waiting in there..a bit nervous...but she didn't show up..ohh..it makes it even harder for me to wait any longer...!. I don't know how is she gonna react after i told her this..i hope she's cool with it..i mean..it's not gonna make any difference without me or with me right..??..
Aan called me last night..i can't believe she's leaving in a matter of days..and leaving for good!. well life hasn't been treating her well since she's been here...so she decided to go home. I'm actually a bit sad if i'm thinking about the fact that she's going home for good..e.i hope things will be back on track for her..i wish you the best of luck ya an..and i'm gonna miss you a lot.
Hmm..you know what..mina is getting married this january..waw..i can't believe that...i can't believe that she finally get what she wanted. You know when we were in high school..she always talked about how she wished to meet her guy once she got to college..and got married and just stay with him for the rest of her life..wow...! And that's happen like exactly how she wants it to be..! She met a guy not long after she started her college life..and right now they are busy arranging their wedding..!. Oh my god..i'm so happy for you mina..wish i could be there on your wedding day.....=).
What else yaa..i don't know what else to talk.... U2 is coming to st.louis and dendre is dying to see the concert but the thing is..the ticket is sold out like..an hour after they first open the ticket window..wow...most people even lining up the night before they sell the ticket. So..i guess we won't go to see the concert then......poor nduti...i hope like we can find a way somehow at the last minute..=)..amin ya nduti.
Sometimes i don't understand why people tell lies..to make them looks better? to make people appreciate more? to make people think they're high class and all that..? i just don't get that...just be yourself and if you are a good person...people will like you no matter what kind of cars you are driving..what kind of social cliche you're from and all that...you don't have to make stories up..*sigh*
wow, it's been a while since i've been here..more than a month i guess, i've been meaning to stop by here and dish some of my thoughts..but..i don't know..it's not like i don't have enough time..i always online anyway, it's just..i can't just log in and start typing...i think i need to be in the specific mood or something. It's weird..i think i kind of scary to open up about my self..not that i'm afraid somebody will find out because no one's know this address, but..it's just kinda scary to me to figure out about my self, to dig out my feelings and all that..it gives me this eerie feeling whenever i start writing in here....what's wrong with me??. I hope this just because i don't write here regularly...i guess i'll have to make it a habit to come here...
Mom called and guess what...we talked about me..about me and nduti, about my plan and all that...i forgot how it started, the conversation just flow like that. Yupe, i told her that i think i've found somebody i wanna be married to and that i wanna do it soon..maybe in a year or two ..the faster the better. She said that if that's what i want..she's fine with that..but she said she needs more time to get to know nduti and his family better..she knows that they are nice and all that..but that's not enough you know, we're talking about a long life relationship here and if i get married with him that means he's gonna be my mom's son and vice versa. She also said that what she really wants is for me to have a man who is a good muslim, knows a to z about islam and implement the religion on day to day basis, she said that if he is obedient to the religion then it will guarantee him to be a good man for his wife and for the family. Nduti..i guess you know what to do now..!!..hehe..
huh..i have finance quiz tomorrow and i haven't even started..i know i'm a proscastinator..big time proscastinator. i'm so happy with my finance class..i got 83 for the second exam...yey..=)...i know i know..that's after a whole lot bonus points..but still...!.I had 2 exams today and i didn't do good..i got 80 for both of them...mktg 329 and mgmt 318. I think i'm fine with mktg 329..i think i can get an A out of this class..but for mgmt 318..hmm..i thought i could get an A easily..but then the test is actually getting harder and harder and i barely make it to class..! I need a 92 for the last test so i could get an A overal..i hope i can make it..i just need to be more prepared!.
Hmm..what else..i had a lot in mind last week..from my annoying toothache to ASAF and else...!. .i can go on and on about all this...i gotta brush my teeth..and decide what i'm gonna do after that...is it better to sleep early and wake up early tomorrow to study for my quiz..or..study till late and wake up close to 9..?..hmm..i don't know..i think i'll go with option number 1...hehe..seeyaa!
You and I are connected in a way that goes beyond romance,..
beyond friendship, beyond what we've ever had before.
It has defied time, distance, and changes in ourselves and in our lives.
And it has defied every explanation except one:
purely and simply, we're soulmates.
I can't explain it, i just feel it.
It's there in the way my spirit subtly lifts whenever we talk,
how the sound of your voice brings me home in a way I can't explain.
it's in the delight I feel when we laugh at exactly the same things.
When I'm with you, it's like a tiny part of the universe shifts into the place it's supposed to be,
and all is right with the world
These things, and so many more, have made me understand
that this is a once-in-a-lifetime, forever connection
that could only exist between you and me.
And deep in my soul,
I know that our relationship is a rare gift, one that will bring us an extraordinary happiness all through our lives.
Hope we can make it to the end ya ndut.
with love,
beyond friendship, beyond what we've ever had before.
It has defied time, distance, and changes in ourselves and in our lives.
And it has defied every explanation except one:
purely and simply, we're soulmates.
I can't explain it, i just feel it.
It's there in the way my spirit subtly lifts whenever we talk,
how the sound of your voice brings me home in a way I can't explain.
it's in the delight I feel when we laugh at exactly the same things.
When I'm with you, it's like a tiny part of the universe shifts into the place it's supposed to be,
and all is right with the world
These things, and so many more, have made me understand
that this is a once-in-a-lifetime, forever connection
that could only exist between you and me.
And deep in my soul,
I know that our relationship is a rare gift, one that will bring us an extraordinary happiness all through our lives.
Hope we can make it to the end ya ndut.
with love,
Agh, i'm so hungry and i'm starving for some house special chicken for kahala. I called them up just now but they said they only do delivery for orders more than $10, damn...a house special chicken and fish ball soup only cost me around $6..so..what should i get with the four dollars justify?..no luck on kahala, so i just called sam's cafe and orders shawarma chicken, sam's cafe will still deliver it to you even if you only orders a $2 worth of subs.
I'm chatting with dendre now..he's making some martabak mie..it sure tastes good. You know dendre and i are using web cam now so we can see each other while chatting..hehe, that's cute don't you think? so we can see each other everyday!
Today, when i had lunch at the student center, i browsed around the university bookstore's card section..i was looking for a card for hana's birthday and then i came accross with this really awesome card..all of the words in there are just exactly the duplicate of my feelings and what i think of our relationship. ..even tho i don't really like the layout and the color (it's just too cheesy) but i thought i could use another card and copy some of the words and re-words that a little bit. I don't know when i'll give him the card tho..maybe some times soon..!. Okay, i'll write down what the card says in the next entry.
i don't feel well tonight, i've been sick since last wednesday, man..last wednesday was terrible. I didn't eat the whole day till late in the afternoon...and then i ate noodle once i got home..*smart idea, huh*..that made my stomach really sick and i didn't feel well at all when the night came..but then carson called to have a group meeting and do the mktg 438 homework..i knew i wouldn't be able to figure all of the answers by my self so i said okay i'll be there. And..things just got worse in the library...i felt like throwing up the whole time but i handle that okay i guess. But you know..by the time i stepped on my room..i began throwing up. My body was shaking, my head was so dizzy that i thought i was about to pass out. So i just lied down on my bed, pour some minyak kayu putih..and just took some rest. But after an hour of lying down..(i couldn't fell asleep), i felt like throwing up again so i ran quickly to the bathroom but i couldn't make it there, i mean..i could make it to the bathroom but i couldn't hold it till i get to the bathroom..so my carpet was just covered with all those dirty stuff that came out of my mouth (yikes).
So, since then..i still haven't felt better..i catch a cold right now..i ve been sneezing like every second and my throats is just itchy...oh my god, this is not fun at all. I took some medicine that i bought at walgreens but it seems does not work yet.
Despite all that, i had a really nice and fun weekend. Dendre came here friday night..and he gave me a card...it was so sweet of him..thank you ya nduti....the cards says like this...
"HONEY, can't wait to hug you...for a good long time, can't wait to squeeze you..because you're mine...can't wait to kiss you ...........and if you don't mind..can't wait to get my hands on your behind.."..
huehehehe.. and he draws like a cute smiley face..e. Makasih ya nduti...:)
Ben called me earlier..and he said that he really loves it to see us...he said that we both are really good for each other and we just seems like a very good couple..you know..always happy to be together and cherish every moment together...! ..:)
On friday night..dendre and i didn't go anywhere except to eat at kahala..and his fried rice didn't turn out that good like it always been. Oh..i guess we went to walgreens too to buy some medicine for me..dendre wanted to play pool with ben at 11 actually but he was just too tired.
Saturday, we went to jonesboro to pick up vero..and then we went to marion mall, i really wanted to buy things so badly but it just seems that i couldn't find the one i like, and when i did find the one i like...they didn't have the size for me. But i'm still eyeing at the boots ..maybe i'll get that later..sometimes next month or end of this month. University mall was our next stop after that, and i did buy some things from famous barr, just 2 football jackets..for 9.99....and i bought a black pants also, it's actually a bit longer for me..i have to figure out what to do with it. We went back to my dorm to take a shower and change..and then we went to student center to meet with ben, martha and segu. We all played pool and i played for the first time..martha was showing me how to play with so much patience..hehe...i know i won't be able to poke some balls.
After bored with playing pool, we went to play bowling at coo coos, at first we want to play at the place behind the mall but they were closed, so we had to drive all the way to carterville...it was a fun game, hehe...! We stopped by at walmart on the way back, and i bought alittle present for marilu..it's her birthday today..hope she likes it.
I didn't show up for the surprise party debbie made for her..i know debbie was telling me about it but she didn't remind again me so i was kinda forget about it, and when the clock hits 12...i was far away in marion so i couldn't make it.
I know..i think people will start you know..talking about me..not like gossiping or anything, but they are questioning why i never spare some times to hang out with them??..you know..i always promise to debbie that i will go here and there with her..such as the karaoke presented by taiwanese student association, the soccer game, all those meetings and many others. Marilu and kareen also always ask me to go out with them but i just couldn't make it. I don't know..it's not that i don't want to hang out with them..but i just have a lot of things to do this semester..i have assignment due almost every day, all the tests, project and everything are just killing me. So, having fun at sticks in one of school days is the least thing i wanna do. Besides..clubbing is not really my scene ..!..I don't know..i hope they can understand this..and .to be friends does not mean that you have to hang out, go out and spend times with each other all the time right?
So, after we dropped martha off at ambasador hall, we went for supper at chicago hotdog..i was really hungry. Vero slept over at ben's...hehe...can't imagine that.
Today...we went over to ben's house, vero was still there and we had lunch at kahala. After that, ben took her home and dendre and i went to office max..i needed to buy hp calculator for my finance class, but they didn't have it there. Thank god we finally found it at 710 so, i can catch up with all the materials..(and that..if i can manage to study). I don't mind studying actually you know..if it's for my marketing class. But this is finance..??
I had a group meeting at 8 tonight.....it didn't take that long but i'm getting tired of group meeting.
I still can't believe what has happened to the united states on tuesday, September 11, 2001. That day will be another historical day and the most terrifying day to date. My heart goes out to all of the people who lost their loved ones..i hope god will give them the strenghness to cope with the pain and sorrow. Since the two planes slammed in to the twin tower and caused them to topple and two other planes crashed in the pentagon and pennsylvania area, all of the people life in america would not be the same... i'm still scrambling to understand who could commit such a heinous act?.
I just finished doing some sit-ups, since i watched britney spears diary on mtv...i promised to my self that i'm gonna do sit ups everyday..as much as i possible can, man..she really have the body to kill, she does sit ups 500 times a day..daang... Hmm..it's not that i don't appreciate my body, i like the way i am..but there are times when i wish i could be a few inches taller *who doesn't anyway?*, and have a build up stomach and skinnier legs.
Now i'm on my study break, i finished studying for sales management quiz tomorrow and i will study operations management after this...i'm chatting with dendre now...!. Ohh..i don't know what to eat tonight..for sure i don't want another indomie and i ate tuna noodle caserole this afternoon..so i can't eat the same thing for dinner. What about fettucini?..hmm..no thank you, i want some chicken...kentucky will be good maybe, or some chicken fingers for somewhere else.
Debbie said she's gonna be here..but she hasn't called me since, donna came to my room after we had lunch together in the tv room, she told me about the opening job in andersen consulting. Marilu came by here also to borrow my vacuum cleaner and laura stopped by for a while...we were gossiping about ivonne, hehe..the thing is she's always with lasslo (the hungarian guy), and we are just curious about it. Laura saw them holding hands at schnucks..hehe..maybe they are hooking up..:P