Just one of those days

School is fine, it's pretty hectic this week and i've screwed two of my quizzes. My sales quiz was actually sooo easy BUT i didn't know that the quiz was gonna be over chapter 2, i thought it's gonna be over chapter 1 since that's the only chapter we've had covered to the day of the quiz..oh man. My finance quiz was..mmm, i know i could do it but i did some silly mistake, like there is a formula that we supposed to add the value, but what i did was multiply them both instead of adding them together...hee..hee...does that mean i know or i dont?..anyway, it's not like i don't make a big deal out of it, but hopefully it wouldn't hurt me at all, i know i need to spend some extra times for this class!.

My family? Haven't talked to them for a while, almost two weeks i guess?..i'm gonna call my mom some times this week..but i don't have a calling card..i hate it because i can't even purchase the calling card from that site, they always pending my order...gotta use dendre's credit card..hehe.

What else yaa?..i know next week and the week after that will gonna be even more hectic, next week we have to go to great shape and meet with the manager and i have to discuss about ASAF also with Debbie...i'll be the vice president ..yoohooo..:). i have my case due and marketing research exam next week and also my second sales management quiz.. these three things will always come every week!..well i don't wanna talk about the whole assignments thing, i know it's a lot and i just need to get them done..quickly!

You know what, everytime i think about aaliyah, it gives me this chill somehow, it such a big loss for the world that such a sweet and talented young-beautiful artist died in a very young age, i like her a lot. I always think she is pretty and you know..always have this nice attitude, don't talk a lot, she's sexy but not sleazy at all, her style is so sophisticated..i admired her in some way. I know i'm not a huge fan of her or anything, in fact i just started to like her a while ago..and i've been listening to her song "try again" and "we need a resolution" everyday since then...a couple times a day even!..so i'm a bit sad now knowing that she's gone and i really regret it for not trying to get to know her since long ago! i guess angel doesn't belong to earth, huh?.

I normally don't get this serious if some public figures passed away, like when princess diana died..you know the whole world was crying but i didn't really feel anything. I don't know what makes me take this so seriously..i guess it makes me even more realize that we can't take life for granted, we have to know and realize that someday we have to go and also have to let even our closest person go...! just thinking about this makes my eyes all watery!.

The thing that sadden me is the fact that she died in a tragic incident, plane crash. That is really something that i've been really scared of, it's not that i'm afraid of flying..i know i'm petrified of heights but being in an airplane is okay..in fact sometimes i miss the smell of airplanes and being there. But i always thinking about plane crash and all that...i know it's weird, but some times i imagine my self in an exploding plane and wondering what's gonna happen next, what's gonna happen to nduti?..to my family?..oh ..i guess i'm kinda have negative thinking here, always thinking about the worst and always expecting the worst...!. Not that i expecting it to happen...but you know...ugh, i don't even know how i get all these fear..maybe it's just because i'm away from my family and i am so worry about everything, i'm worried that somehow..something will separate us..and we will not be able to see each other anymore..permanently..maybe one day when i have got together with them again i can cut this stupid fear out of my mind totally!.

Every night before i go to bed, i always pray to god... i pray for everything that comes to mind..mostly i pray for him to keep me and all of the people i love in a good condition, good health, i pray for him to keep all of us away from danger and all the bad things and importantly gives all of us a long life. i always ask for strengh, patience and happiness. I ask GOD to give me and all of my family a chance to be together again in a whole lot better condition. I pray for my mom..for ibnu and hana..!. It's funny you know when i pray for hana and ibnu, sometimes i pray for little things...for instance sometimes i would pray for ibnu to eat more so he can get more meat in his body, hehehe...see..i care for even the slightest things.

I also pray for my self, you know.. to graduate soon with a high GPA, i know i won't be graduating with magna cum laude..but at least i still have some hopes to get a cum laude major GPA..! I pray for me to get a good job, wonderful career, and to experience a long-normal and wonderful life. What i mean by normal is you know just like everybody else, to have beautiful kids and everything...and last but not least i always ask for god to guide me thru my life and show me the way.

Nduti is always been in my prayer also, i pray for him to have an even brighter future and you know..praying that we are really meant for each other and that we can get married sometimes soon, i really want it to happen between today and december next year, i really hope it's gonna happen you know. I have been imagining raising a kid together with him..i really have been imagining down to the very single detail of everything....!. Hope you'll hear my prayer and granted me all that...amin!.

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..it's been more than a week since the last time i wrote here. yea, i've been really really busy with the orientation staff, well not like i have a lot to do when i'm at the ISS, but i just have to be around there in case someone needs help or something. This orientation started last monday and we have been there since 8 in the morning till 7 at night. Today is okay cos i just need to give them the library tour at 2, maybe it will take about an hour or so then the next thing is at 7 o clock, so i will have a chance to go home and..i dont know..do some stuff like unpack my stuff maybe, my room is just like a plane crash..you can't even see the floor..

So, it's been 5 days since dendre and i have been away of each other, not long but enough to make me miss him....he justify on sunday afternoon after he dropped me off at the student center. But last tuesday, i stopped by at his place..for only like 15 minutes, debby wanted to pick up yanos at the airport and she asked if i wanted to come down with her so i could stop by at nduti's, hehe..

Living in ambassador hall is okay i guess, except for the fact that it's not so easy for me to eat, i mean it's not like that i always cook but it's just that i don't like to be going in and out the communal kitchen whenever i feel like eating. . Anyway, there are a lot of people here in ambassador hall, i met some of them....laura is living on the same wing with me but her room is all the way at the end, and ivonne room is just accross from laura's room. Upstairs, there are yoko..the japanese girl, marilu from peru.., next to marilu's room is martha's room. Kay room is upstairs too but i forgot what number she is in, and ON is also on my floor. I don't have like a close friend or anything here, but i think i know enough people to make me feel comfortable. I get along with Kaori okay, debbie is nice too.. The rest of the guy are okay, the malaysian group like paul, yap, ling are nice, well it's not like i wanted to get close with them. but they are good, the nigerian like wally, niyi, dotun and nsikak are fine too..i click with them, i mean they are nice and funny too..they always crack me up..haha

Hmm, i don't know what else to write..i'm trying to convince dendre to come over here tonight..but i know he'll be tired and all that so maybe it's okay if he just come down here tomorrow till sunday, either tonight or tomorrow..i will still see him right? but i prefer tonight tho........! Well, i think that's it for now..i'm trying to build ASAF website and maybe just cleaning up my room..it smells like onion!!

No More Dial Up

haven't written in here for a couple of days, lots of things happened. Last Tuesday, we went to the airport to pick up mbak maya and mas abdul. I thought they were going to sleep over here but then their car was fixed so they decided to drive forward to carbondale, but they did came over for a while

I have some good news to tell...first is about the cable modem..yey..:), we finally got our cable modem yesterday, it's so much faster and smoother, oh i wish we've ordered this long time ago, i'm sure we would already have cds stack up in the house, cos that's exactly what we're doing now, hehehe. I'm listening to kopi dangdut right now, hehee...that's my all time favorite dangdut song.

Second good news is i have 3 emails for klikmarketing, 2 of them said that we have done a great job and they wanted klikmarketing to join the workshop/conference that they hold this coming september, isn't that such an honor?..There was this guy who email me, he said he wanted to join the klikmarketing team, hehe..like we have a team?..anyway...

Third good news is Kim email me and she said that she has a room booked for me on the second floor, facing the basketball court, perfect, just how i wanted my room to be. anyway...i only have a couple days justify..hix...

I don't know what else to write in here...i guess i'll write later!