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Dendre's mom and dad are here..they just arrived early this evening. Seneng deh sejak ada Jibran jadi sering di kunjungi orang orang...=)

Hari ini Jibran 4 bulan..cepet yahh..kalo ngeliat jibran kayanya udah nggak kaya bayi lagi..kadang maunya emang supaya dia cepet besar..tapi suka sedih juga kok cepet amat sih gedenya...kata dendre kalo bisa di suntik biar kecil terus mau deh..hehe...*husss*.


Here's some pictures from the past months...i'm using yahoo photo album since i can't log in to my FTP account..last week the login was successful but we couldn't access the file that has been uploaded and this week..the ftp always fail to connect...we have the domain and hosting but can't do anything with it..what a waste of money!!..So i'm just using the free one until the problem is fixed.


I just republished all the entries since the first time i used blogger..i've been using blogger since 2001..but i've started this online journal thing since..i think early 2000..using a service like blogger tapi udah RIP sekarang..so i lost all the entries. Sayang juga kalo di pikir...i know it's nothing important but they represent my life. Anyway.. the comments from previous posts are gone now..huhu..maap yahh..=))

i got this from the msg board:


Before I was a Mom

I made and ate hot meals.

I had unstained clothes.

I had quiet conversations on the phone.


Before I was a Mom

I slept as late as I wanted.

And I never worried about how late I got into bed.

I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.


Before I was a Mom

I cleaned my house each day.

I never tripped over toys and forgot the words to lullabies.


Before I was a Mom

I didn't worry whether or not plants were poisonous.

I never thought about immunizations.


Before I was a Mom

I had never been puked on

pooped on

spit on

peed on

chewed on

or pinched by tiny fingers.


Before I was a Mom

I had COMPLETE control of my mind

My thoughts

My body

And my time.

I slept all night.


Before I was a Mom

I never held down a screaming child

So the doctor could do tests

Or give shots.

I never looked into teary eyes and cried.

I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.

I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.


Before I was a Mom

I never held a sleeping baby just because

I didn't want to put them down.

I never felt my heart break into a million pieces

when I couldn't stop the hurt.

I never knew that something so small

Could affect my life so much.

I never knew I would LOVE being a Mom!


Before I was a Mom

I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.

I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.

I didn't know that bond between a Mother and her child.

I didn't know so something so small

Could make you feel so important.


Before I was a Mom

I never got up in the middle of the night

Every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay

I had never known the warmth

The joy

The love

The heartache

The fulfillment

Or the satisfaction of being a Mom.

Kobe Bryant is superhuman, he gave yet another outstanding performance last night...scoring 42 points and lead the lakers to victory eventhough he just spent a second straight day inside a courtroom in colorado...and almost every shot he made was a tough shot. So its 2-2 for the lakers and spurs and for the rest of the teams in the conference semifinals..it's getting exciting..

Jibran sekarang udah tambah gede, udah tambah panjang dan tambah berat, dari bulan lalu udah pake diaper size 2...minggu depan Jibran 4 bulan...udah boleh makan solid food..i can't wait to go to babies r us and buy all those cute and colorful bowls and spoons for him. Tapi Jibran dah lama banget nih nggak flip over lagi..kayanya dia lupa deh caranya ngebalikin badan dari tummy to back..hehe..


His head and neck muscle's control has improved, kalo lagi tiduran udah bisa ke posisi duduk kalo tangannya di pegangin..trus kalo lagi tiduran sekarang maunya bangun bangun...ngangkat2 kepalanya dan kakinya kaya lagi sit up..hehe..lucu deh kalo lagi tidur trus pas bangun..melek dan langsung aja gitu ngangkat kepalanya..kaya mo bangun sendiri. Sekarang maunya duduk sambil di pegangin..kalo nggak berdiri sambil di pegangin..kalo lagi gitu senengnya bukan main. Trus sekarang kalo lagi di tengkurepin juga udah bisa pindah posisi..dari yang tadinya horizontal jadi vertical.


Jibran juga lagi seneng senengnya blow bubbles..ampun deh itu ludahnya kemana mana..hehe. Tambah cerewet juga..kalo di ajak ngobrol wahh hebohan dia deh..ketawa mlulu..trus suka teriak teriak nggak jelas juga...terutama kalo lagi gemes sama mainannya yang bergelantungan..pingin di masukin ke mulut tapi nggak bisa bisa..soalnya mainannya ketinggian. He also loves to grab at things now...kalo di gendong sambil megangin baju..rambut gue juga di jambakin terus..huhu..it's time to get a short hairstyle i guess..


Ternyata Jibran itu takut gelap..hehehe..waktu itu kan mau tidur dan lampunya di matiin semua..dia yang langsung ngejerit...trus waktu di rumahnya tante juga di bawa ke basement..ke laundry roomnya..dan pas masuk ke situ lampunya belum di nyalain...dian yang langsung megang kenceng banget dan ngejerit. Jangankan di ruangan gelap..di pakein sunglasses aja dia langsung tereak kok...hehehe...gimana siihh..kan lahirnya malem, katanya kalo yang lahirnya malem itu nggak takut gelap..hehe..mitos sih mitooss..


Trus..apalagi ya...oh iyaa sekarang kalo di tidurin jibran ngangkat kakinya udah tinggi banget and he can touch his toes with his hand..tapi belum dua duanya..baru satu tangan aja. He also has found his thumb..hehe..telat banget yah..dulu kan semua jarinya di masukin..sekarang udah bisa masukin jempolnya aja. Trus sekarang nursingnya udah nggak bisa diem lagi....he looks around so much..ketawa ketawa dulu..trus terusin lagi..trus nengok ke tv dulu..trus terusin lagi...ampun deh..kan jadi lama selesainya. Tapi lucu sih kalo dia lagi kayak gitu..biasanya gue suka pura pura nggak liat aja dan nggak ngajak dia ngomong..abis kalo enggak kan tambah lama..tapi dia tetep aja ngeliatiin terus nungguin gue nengok ke dia..hehe...


Jibran jibran..you make me feel so big inside...you make me proud...just to see you do all those little things...just to be your mom.

My little brother turned 10 years old today..Happy Birthday Ibnu, may you grow up to be a fine young man...i'm so sorry i couldn't give you the birthday present that you wanted..but i hope you still have a wonderful birthday nevertheless. (My dad was scheduled to arrive jakarta on his birthday and he was hoping that my dad would bring Jibran along as his birthday present..hehe)...I love you birthday boy!!

Yesterday was mother's day...my first mother's day...nothing special though..in fact it was kind of a sad day for me..a few tears trickled down my cheeks as i waived goodbye to my dad at st. louis airport last night..have a safe trip home daddy...

pingin nge blog lagi..kayanya udah lama nggak nulis nulis, tapi MT nya lagi error..damn you MT!!..eh bukan MT nya sih yang error..tapi login ke MT nya yang sepertinya ada kesalahan dari internal server cold-static.com, don't know how to fix it..payah deh webhostxl..upload file aja nggak keluar keluar..i was trying to place this blog on the cold-static server but somehow it didn't work eventhough i know i didn't make any mistake when setting all the configuration...*sigh*...i guess i'm back to using blogspot for now.

This is pretty cool....you should try it!!



1. Grab a calculator(can't do it in your head)

2. Key in the first three digits of your phone number (NOT the area code)

3. Multiply by 80

4. Add 1

5. Multiply by 250

6. Add the last 4 digits of your phone number

7. Add the last 4 digits of your phone number again.

8. Subtract 250

9. Divide number by 2


Do you recognize the answer???????



Weird, huh?

This is new...Jibran slept through the night last night…(for babies, sleeping thru the night = 5 hours of sleep at a stretch)..he slept for 6.5 hours..went to bad at 10.30, woke up at 5 to get a 5 minutes feeding and went right back to sleep and woke up again at 6.30..emang biasanya dia pasti bangun sih jam segitu…it’s the time when dendre is getting ready for work..takes a shower and everything..all these activities wakes him up…or maybe he just wants to say bye bye to his daddy..=)). After dendre left…we would just chitchatting in bed for about half hour and then he went right back to sleep..till around 9.30 or so.



Anyway..i think the reason he slept for so long last nite was because I put him on his tummy.. I’ve been meaning to do that but still kinda scared since sleeping on the tummy is one of the risks that cause sudden infant death syndrome. In some of the states..Daycare is not allowed by law to put babies on their tummy when sleeping, if they got busted..they would be shut down immediately, it is a very serious matter. But anyway..i gave it a try last nite cause I thought he can hold up his head for a pretty long period now so it must be ok..he can moves his head from side to side and he can also flip back..besides I put him in his crib which has a flat and a very firm mattress..not like spring bed which is a little bit fluffy…plus I think it is safer for him to sleep like that in his crib than sleeping together with me in my bed anyway ( we do this about half of the nite everynight)…there’s a greater danger with sleeping together…we can be rolling over on him and smothering him, etc..ya udah lah makanya di coba aja…dan ternyata manjur.



Waktu senin minggu lalu juga Jibran slept thru the night..i’m not sure if it was because of I swaddled him or because he took a bottle of formula dendre gave him when I was in class. Formula itu kan harder to digest than breastmilk jadi kenyangnya lebih lama. Or maybe it was because both things combined. But I wouldn’t give him a formula just so I could sleep better at night for now though…nggak tau nih I’m just not that fussy about not having enough sleep..that’s weird considering I was very adamant about having 8 hours of sleep before I have him. Mungkin karena gue emang udah expect kali ya kalo tidurnya nggak bakalan bisa lama lagi. Lagian Jibran juga nggak mau minum formula..waktu itu nggak ngerti kenapa di minum juga..biasanya he would cringe after a few gulp…trus yang nggak mau di minum lagi.


Ngomong2 tentang breastfeeding..it is one of the things that is really hard at first but very rewarding in the end…it’s really not that easy as it looks…I was about this close to give up…huhu. But now I’m enjoying it and I know when the time to wean him comes, I would miss this more than I thought I would. Sekarang Jibran udah tau kalo pas di pangku dan mau di susuin..pasti dia yang cengengesan gitu..hehehe..ketawa nya lain, keliatan excited banget. Sometimes in the middle of feeding..he would stop when I look at him..just to smile at me…huhu…that is my b/f precious moment.

Horee...hari sabtu kemaren jibran bisa nge flip lhoo....i put him on his tummy di karpet..trus gue berdiri dan mindah mindahin channel TV dan tau tau dia berbalik sendiri aja gitu....i thought at first it was an accident, emang dia nya jatoh aja..i put him back on his tummy ehh dia berbalik lagi sendiri..hehe..so it wasn't just an accident nor it was a fluke..dia emang dah bisa balikin badannya..he did it again for about 6 times after that..tapi ada saatnya dia nggak bisa juga sih..udah usaha gitu sampe ngos ngosan tapi nggak balik balik juga...trus nangis deehh..hehehe..


Kemaren temennya Jibran dateng ke rumah..baby Maliha (4 months old)..lucu banget deh masa pas pertama kali dua duanya di berdiriin face to face gitu nggak ada yang mau ngeliat lho..dua duanya buang muka...hehehehehe..kocak banget asli...we all had a good laugh yesterday. Ada foto fotonya tuh di photolist (just click HERE)...foto yang berduanya all the way towards the end...check it out yah..very2 cute pictures of the two of them..=)....

Thursday

Siang2 pergi ke rumah tante anne untuk nitipin Jibran cause I had to go to Missouri Baptist Hospital for an ultrasound. Noo…not THAT ultrasound…hehehe..jangan parno dulu ya..:P. It’s something else and thank god the Doctor didn’t find anything to worry about..he just said it’s something normal and will fade away in time. Abis itu ke Delmar…belajar di starbucks…I have exam on Monday...trus jemput dendre di metro station tapi pas mo ke parkiran dia telfon kalo udah ketinggalan kereta..so he’ll be like 15 minutes late..trus depannya parkiran itu ternyata a used bookstore…ya udah deeh mampir aja dulu. Me loves usedbook store..sebenernya sih lebih seneng borders jelas..tapi kalo untuk beli2 sih mendingan di usedbook store lah ya..hehe…Trus abis jemput dendre.. ke rumah tante jemput jibran...katanya Jibran tidurnya lamaa banget di carseatnya..bangun minum susu trus tidur lagi...jadi pas gue nyampe dia juga belum lama bangunnya....dan lagi ngantuk2 lagi gitu..seneng deh pas gue nyampe..dia senyum gitu..padahal matanya lagi kriyep2..=))....sebelum balik kita mampir dulu ke grocery store.


Friday

Went to Asian Market with Jibran….disana ketemu achunk and adi…that was a pretty embarrassing moment cause I forgot their names..malah pertamanya gue agak agak nggak ngenalin mukanya gitu..emang sih ketemu nya jarang jarang..but still..enggak enak banget kalo lupa nama orang. Padahal dulu itu suka sok sok-an kalo lupa nama orang…like it's a cool thing kalo kita lupa nama orang yang inget sama kita..jijay yaaa...tapi skarang asli jadi malu dan nggak enak banget..kesannya ignorant..iya nggak sih?. Anyway…abis itu ke rumah tante…nontonin anak2 yang pada glady resik untuk acara nge band di Purdue..sama mo ketemuan sama Dita juga disana (she was my junior in high school...dia dateng dari Bloomington, IN)..sebenernya dia nyampenya semalem dan mo nginep rumah tapi malem banget datengnya so she decided to stay over at ading’s. Sore nya akhirnya ketemu juga..ya udaaah heboh aja dulu..hehe..last time I met her was summer 2001. Abis itu jemput dendre di airport…balik lagi ke rumah tante..trus pulang deh..tika and irvan dateng trus kita ke St. Louis mills…Cuma makan di Johnny Rockets. Dulu waktu ke Atlanta pernah makan di Johnny Rockets dan kayanya enaak banget..makanya mau cobain lagi aja..tapi kemaren itu standard abis ternyata. Abis itu balik..pada nginep di rumah semuanya.


Saturday

Pagi2 pada lari di lake…pingin ikut siih tapi males…so just stayed at home with Jibran..siangnya lunch di Royal Chinese Barbeque..salted fried calamari…kangkung belacan, fire cracker chicken, deep fried tofu with shrimp..sama chilli oilnya yang tob abis itu..yum yum…Abis itu jalan2 di Delmar..nge-bubble tea…lovely weather..sayang banget kalo cuma di dalem gedung aja..tapi pas mo menjelang malem ke galleria..abisnya angin sih.…beliin baju buat Jibran di Janie and Jack…Dita juga beliin t-shirt lucu gitu buat Jibran..Jibrannya seneng banget di ajak jalan jalan seharian…enggak nangis sama sekali gitu. Trus abis itu balik deh…nonton Final Four...Duke Vs. Uconn...and duke is going down..yay yay yay..it's time for Emeka Okafor to shine...


Sunday

Di rumah aja niyy..belajar buat besok…tapi kita bikin siomay dan batagor request dari Dita and Ading..sorenya ke library sebentar sama dita to pick up some materials for the exam..trus ya udah belajar aja di rumah walopun lagi rame gitu.


Monday

Exam time..huhuhu…Malemnya pulang kelas nonton Championship game..Uconn Vs. Georgia Tech tapi nggak seru gitu...it was an easy win for Uconn


Tuesday

Pagi pagi main main sama Jibran…he's been trying to reach his toes..tapi nggak nyampe nyampe..hehe..lucu deh..trus siangnya liat apartment..trus jemput tante..cause we’re going to get a new haircut…tadinya sih gue cuma mo nganterin aja..soalnya si tante ini mau potong rambut and I recommended Keiko to her. Tapi tante nggak tau tempatnya..emang agak jauh siy..it’s in the Illinois side. Trus ya udah setelah di pikir since gue emang pingin potong rambut juga, I might as well get it done at the same time…soalnya jauh siihh. Tapi apa daya kita sampe sana udah telat 30 menit dari appointment time nya..so she can only take 1 person..ya udah mendingan si tante aja dulu deh yang potong rambut…gue kapan kapan..belum tau juga sih pingin yang kaya gimana. Sambil nunggu..gue sama Jibran ke McDonalds..lucu deh bawa dia ke Mekdi..kayanya dia seneng gitu soalnya warna warni gitu kan disana. Jadi ngebayangin kalo Jibran udah gedean..nanti gue bisa order a happy meal for him..and when they ask whether i want a boy or a girl toy...gue bisa bilang boy toy nanti..=)). Anywayy..abis itu balik ke rumah tante…ehh ada oleh2 buat Jibran dari Purdue dari Adith, Manda and Tira…purdue basketball jersey gitu…lucu sekalii…tapi masih kegedean sih sekarang…wahh Jibran bajunya banyak banget…yang belum di pake aja udah banyaak banget..yang udah di pake juga banyak dan palingan baru di pake sekali dua kali gitu..banyak yang udah nggak muat. Sayang deh. Anyway..trusnya jemput dendre di airport..trus kita liat another Apt di olive boulevard. Cerita nya kita mo pindah lagi niih summer ini, makanya lagi nyari2 apt terus. Oh iya malemnya nonton championship game women college basketball...and University of Connecticut just made a history tonight....team cewenya menang championship game juga..bener2 the first ever in college basketball history...party 7 hari 7 malem pasti tuh di uconville...


Wednesday

Di rumah aja niy nggak kemana mana…cuma masak2 aja..bikin fettuccine, nyoba bikin pastel juga…bikin bubur kajang ijo..trus bikin cah jagung muda pake bakso…yummeeh...tapi emang nggak nyambung makanannya..hehehe..namanya juga lagi iseng..:P


Thursday

Skarang belum kemana mana...Jibran lagi napping..lama banget tidurnya dia dari jam 8.30..mungkin karena di tengkurepin yah..biasanya dia suka nggak mau sih di tengkurepin...i told him he will like it if he just gives it a chance..hehe..bener kan..sekarang udah 3 jam belum bangun bangun..this is the longest record in his napping history. Nanti sore mo jemput dendre dan mo beliin Play Gym buat Jibran..=))..soalnya sekarang dia baru mulai tertarik sama mainan gitu..kalo gue mainin fish rattle nya dia ketawa2 dan ngeliatin..seneng nonton tv juga dia akhir2 ini..suka ngomong sendiri gitu kalo nonton tv..kadang trusnya ketiduran...lucu deh...